Heavy Shit

[Verse 1]
I got this window in my house
Knows me better than I know myself
Could probably charge me $150 an hour
For all the heavy shit I pour out
I get these voices in my brain
Feels like I'm part of a new strain
I get the, "Stubborn and stupid and useless"
You get the heavy shit I pour out

[Chorus]
So here I am, tryna figure where it all went wrong
Feel like a ghost in my own damn home
Starting to wonder how I got so numb
To this heavy shit I pour out
Bottoming bottles in the mirror when I'm on my own
Feel like I'm lost in my own damn bones
Can someone tell me how I got so numb
To this heavy shit I pour out?

[Verse 2]
They tell me, "Well, this is all part of life, you see"
But the world keeps circling 'round me
No, can't seem to stop being so hard on myself
Hence all the shit I poor out
Still haven't found what I'm looking for
No, all of these people keep closing doors
They tell me, “You can't keep holding all this shit to yourself
Go find a way to let it pour out"

[Chorus]
So here I am, tryna figure where it all went wrong
Feel like a ghost in my own damn home
Starting to wonder how I got so numb
To this heavy shit I pour out
Bottoming bottles in the mirror when I'm on my own
Feel like I'm lost in my own damn bones
Can someone tell me how I got so numb
To this heavy shit I pour out?

[Bridge]
So here I am (Ooh-ah, ooh-ah)
So here I am, like a ghost in my
Own home again (Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
Mm, with this heavy shit I pour out (Ah-ahh)
(So, come on, let it pour out) Baby, let it pour
(All the heavy shit I pour out)
(Let it pour out, all the heavy shit I pour out)

[Chorus]
So here I am, tryna figure where it all went wrong
Feel like a ghost in my own damn home (Ooh-ooh, ooh)
Starting to wonder how I got so numb
To this heavy shit I pour out
Bottoming bottles in the mirror when I'm on my own
Feel like I'm lost in my own damn bones
Can someone tell me how I got so numb
To this heavy shit I pour out?

[Outro]
(Shit I pour out) So here I am (Oh, oh-oh-oh)
So here I am (Oh, oh-oh-oh)
(Ohh, ohh) So here I am
Someone tell me how I got so numb
To this heavy shit I pour out
So here I am (Oh, oh-oh-oh) Woo, ooh-ooh
So here I am (Oh, oh-oh-oh)
So here I am
Someone tell me how I got so numb
To this heavy shit I pour out