Heavy Moon

I've been sleeping in 'til late
Worried about what to say
When friends ask me how I'm doing
Just smile, "I'm okay."
I'd hate to bring you down this rabbit hole with me
Of unwashed clothes and bloodshot eyes
And a head far too heavy

I don't need your fucking sympathy
Just want you to hate myself as much..
As much as I hate me

I blame the heavy moon

A cold shower to shock the nerves
But that shit doesn't work
When you can't feel anything anyway
And that new leaf never turns
I'm sick of feeling like I don't fucking fit in
So I mark myself permenantly
And let the ink speak through my skin

I don't need your fucking sympathy
Just want you to hate myself as much..
As much as I hate..

Grinding my teeth
Feeling weak at the knees
I shut my eyes
But it seems like I keep twisting the knife
They stop and they stare
Just let me be
When will this gloom stop looming over me?

I blame the heavy moon

Held down, not against my own will
The bottom tastes better than I think it should
It's intoxicating, but it kills anything inside that's good
Admit it, not feeling alright

I don't need your sympathy

Going through these motions, it's just a part of life
But it seems like I keep twisting the knife
They stop and they stare
Just let me be
When will this gloom stop looming over me?

I can't blame the heavy moon
(anymore)