​heavy heart (they killed x today)

[Hook]
I got a heavy heart
It’s weighing me down right now
I had to write this song
To try to get it off and let it out
I ain’t even cook my thoughts
All this emotion raw
Straight off the press
Weight on my chest
I gotta get it off
(X2)
Mhm I gotta get it off

[Verse 1]
They killed X today
He the same age as my lil homie
Thinking what if that had been my lil homie
Murdered in broad day with cameras rolling
And twitter know it, before I do
Snapchat him while he laying lifeless
His mama don’t even know her baby dying
But the world do
Akademics got the full scoop
And people saying that my lil homie deserved it
But don’t nobody really know the full truth
They don’t know the trauma that he been through
And He ain’t perfect but is you, or are you
But back to the story I get the call to
Inform me of the news
I broke down and Fall to my knees
And ask why God
It’s things like this that got me paranoid
Sleepless nights and stare at the wall
Not breathing right from these anxious thoughts
Catch my breath and try not to drown in
I shed a tear just thinking bout it
And this only a hypothetical
I wrote a song and we gone sing about ya
Like Puff and faith, I’ll be missing you
But that’s just the cycle of the
Violence in the streets
It could be him or you or it be me
Just, wait until the reaper say repeat
Pour out a pint and say Rest In Peace, Yeah

[Hook]
I got a heavy heart
It’s weighing me down right now
I had to write this song
To try to get it off and let it out
I ain’t even cook my thoughts
All this emotion raw
Straight off the press
Weight on my chest
(I gotta get it off)
(X4)

[Verse 2]
I’m riding through the streets at midnight again
I ain’t even going nowhere I’m just circling
Music so loud it’s distortioning
I wish I could drown all the pain in the drugs
But in the morning it resurfaces
Life has a way of breaking you down it’s a shame
Yeah it’s unfortunate, yeah yeah
Life is a game
Life is a gamble
Do you just play the hand and take the chances
Devil circled back for the win
So he gone milly rock when he dances
I’m on the edge
I’m holding on to the ledge
I got a grip on the madness
Yeah, I got a grip on the

[Bridge]
They killed X today
And he was tryna find his way
Yeah he gotta past real dark
But nothing that the light can’t save

[Verse 3]
I remember when I discovered him
I watched his interviews and studied him
I saw so much hate and love in him
I felt his pain he was a troubled man
His father wasn’t present to give presents
He preceded in the precinct
His mama wasn’t stable she was distant
It affected him mentally
It affected him when she neglected him
And hurt people hurt people, when you
Raised by the wolves
Raised by the streets
Criminal at 14
No love and guidance just drugs and weed
No therapy just rhymes and beats
He started rapping at like 16
Just like me and
Just like him I was lost to
Yeah I was off too
Decisions was wrong too
Feelings I harbored
I lost hope when they killed my Patna
I had built up anger against my father
I was rebelling against the preacher
Started selling drugs for the love of the dollar
Started treating all the females like objects
Big bro told me watch out for karma
But I ain’t believe in God or Allah
I was misguided I was disheartened yeah
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah
I started pushing my raps on the SoundCloud just like X did
I was 17 with a great gift
But all I wanted was to be famous
I sit and wonder what could’ve been
What if that was me instead of him
What if I had never found God
A 19 year old superstar
With many felonies and many charges And many chances and many pardons
And when I got a chance to change yeah
They took it all away, yeah
2 Bulletholes to my chest okay
They took it all away yeah

[Bridge]
And they killed me today
While I was tryna find my way
And yeah I got a past real dark
But nothing that the light can’t save
Or if they killed you today
When you was tryna find your way
And yeah you got a past real dark
But nothing that the light can’t save

[Hook]
I got a heavy heart
It’s weighing me down right now
I had to write this song
To try to get it off and let it out
I ain’t even cook my thoughts
All this emotion raw
Straight off the press
Weight on my chest
I had to get it official