Heartbeat

[Intro]
Noah, what up? This fire

[Verse 1]
Project poetry from my project steps
We sat bare-faced, sittin' on the staircase
No love, no respect when talkin' to fiends in their face
No love, no respect with no lawyer, he ain't get a fair case
Project dreamin', tryna see somethin' else
Motivated by the pain, just wanna be somethin' else
Had to fend for ourselves, mama distracted by addictions
And like the mama from Muppet Babies' face, daddy was missin'
It was bad for our health, but Top Ramen saved lives
Cancer ate mom alive, it got to like stage five
And I know it's only four stages, God ain't showin' no favors
Jesus died for our sins, but even dude won't save us
Slapboxin' with Satan, that's how I got hot hands
Prayin' and I'm cryin' like, "Damn, God, stop, man"
First daddy died, granny died, then mama passed
Got me lookin' to the heavens, how long will this drama last?
So much drama in my life, could pass a drama class
But this my real life, it's not a drama act

[Chorus]
So much pain in my heartbeat
The pain so deep, it make my heart weak
I just had to let my heart speak
Listen, hear my heartbeat
Hear my heartbeat
I just had to let my heart speak

[Verse 2]
This that pain, you can feel it in the soul
This the shoe music, niggas could feel it in the hole
My auntie smoked crack out a Pepsi can
I was young on the ice like Gretzky, man
Stayin' out of trouble, I don't need no more arm
My daddy tied belts around his forearm
And when the vein popped out, the pain popped out
I had to run game to my own brain like he ain't hopped out
But he a junkie, a junkie is what a junkie does
And he don't wanna stop gettin' high and fuckin' up
My cousin said, "At least you had a daddy when you was comin' up
My daddy stayed down the street, and he don't even fuck with us"
I got a letter from my brother that said, "What's up with Blood?
Could you JPay a nigga just a couple bucks?
Just the other day, I heard my youngin' caught a couple slugs
Shit don't never stop, goddamn, what the fuck is up?

[Chorus]
So much pain in my heartbeat
The pain so deep, it make my heart weak
I just had to let my heart speak
Listen, hear my heartbeat
Hear my heartbeat
I just had to let my heart speak

[Verse 3]
The money can't fix the problems
A fool on the search for a war, tryna pick a squabble
A wino at the front of the store just tryna get a swallow
Sit his liquor in front of his foot, then he kicked the bottle
Me, I had to kick the cup 'cause I had my kidneys fucked
Knew I was gettin' out of shape when I had to ask for help to pick me up
Lost, tryna find a way
Enough money in the bank to buy five Rollies, but still can't find the time of day
Tryna find some time to pray
My Muslim homie took his Shahada, now he pray five times a day
Gotta stay off the corner, that's what the honor say
I'm just prayin' that my daughter make the honor roll
She my lil' angel for two reasons, I promise, yo
One for givin' me a purpose, two, she got my mama soul
I miss the days me and mama played dominoes
Told her I'ma follow my dreams 'til it's my time to go

[Chorus]
So much pain in my heartbeat
The pain so deep, it make my heart weak
I just had to let my heart speak
Listen, hear my heartbeat
Hear my heartbeat
I just had to let my heart speak