Heart Full of Misery

Ruger Lead on my head
This is erosion of the soul
These the questions I unload
To Keep my brain in control

Still noticed by motion detectors, nosy detectives
The pastor knows and he speaks in my direction
On a personal note
I wrote to God - it said return to sender
My brain's stained with slaves to Sam Dubose camera
December, my heart broke into a thousand splinters
I hug my brother's cold body, my world ended
Smiles, and conversations I took for granted
Somebody get me off this planet damnit
Where was Heaven? I demand it!
Yo could you help a nigga out God? I'm stranded
But I don't dream no more so candid
I lost one on '13 he got remanded
Last time he seen Kev animate
When I told him he died, we just cried
'Til the prison call ended

Frozen lakes in my veins
Feel like you left me alone
Just staring at the ceiling
My tears dry on their own

Yeah huh, I saw the moon rot and sun die
I tried to water your urn and hoped the ashes rise
I went outside and bust my nine at the sky
Hoping one would graze God so we could just ask it why
How could I, live it up when you died?
My heart burning watching Terrence Sterling trying to survive
So if you hear me my nigga send a note
I just knew that you would visit, somebody send me the pope
I load my SK clip when I mope
Thinking 'bout the Great Beyond, and what's in tow
But now my nightmares seem so frequent
I saw a pyramid in a candle but couldn't find Jesus
My heart broke, count the pieces
I told him he passed he fell out on the sidewalk screamin'