Heart Attack

[Interlude]
"Knife crime is at a near-record high
With more than forty blade offences every day in London"
"At a youth club in South London not far from where
Someone was stabbed less than twenty-four hours ago
The outline to direct link between violent crimes
Social exclusion and austerity"
"A study by City Hall found that London
Has seen an increase of 71%
In victims of serious youth violence
Since 2012. The Mayor
Says this is linked to an increase in poverty
With the highest rates of violence taking place
In somе of the poorest boroughs"

[Verse]
Look, I bet thеm boys think I'm panickin'
Check what my young Gs are carryin'
His blade same length as a javelin
I don't know about B-ball or what's happenin'
But know that it's fucked if he's travellin' and we see him
I can't lie, I was depressed at phases
I was nineteen when the team nearly left him faceless
Hopin' that we never left no traces
You know when you're so damn tired in your house
But you can't sleep 'cah you got pendin' cases
I used to love temptin' fate, but now it's temptin' faces
For half my career, I was part of that
My best friend got a burner, and it's lookin' like a artifact
Put it in your puffer or your Prada hat
Like fuck panic, that's a heart attack
Yeah, it's like, life's so fucked in the time that we're in
We're fightin' the world, and we're fightin' within
Somali dad ran away from a war
Now his son's in a war, that's the cycle we're in
I know niggas that didn't do time in a bin
That have never had freedom of mind, are you sick?
'Round here, main way to provide for your kin
Is in a flick blade, little push-bike and a sim
In London, a place where it's nicer to live
Is only five minutes out from the guys on the strip
Where man make yay' work, heard he a soldier
I know that nigga hasn't got balls like Grey Worm
As I grow older, change of perspective
I gotta stay loyal to my girl, that's the trait she was blessed with
Restaurants, raves with my bredrins
Life's too short, so we gotta turn up
Man talk on my ting for the 'Gram, it's intrusive
I never really thought 'bout taking a life
Till I found out my ex-girl's dad is abusive
I felt "How could I be a man and not do shit?"
I'm on the way there now, and I don't wanna lose it
But fightin' her battle's only hurtin' the girl
How can I protect her from the world
When I couldn't even protect her from myself?
On my grandmother's grave, shit happens again
I put a knife through a family friend
Most the women that I know had shit happen to them
So innocent till guilty, ain't somethin' that I have to respect
I think back to my youth, and I was so ungrateful
How many of our parents had dreams they abandoned
So they could put food on the table?
Intelligent, worthy, and able, that's somebody's parent
You know?
And that affected the way that I see shit
Nightclub toilet, you peed on the seat
'Cause you don't know how it feels when your mum's gotta clean shit
And her boss treats her like she don't even mean shit
And she gotta wait for the bus in the rain, and it's freezin'
And Miss said that you won't ever be shit
And you don't wanna cry about dad, but you need him
I grew up so fucked, but I didn't even deep it
I'm numb to the feelin' of grievin'
And man gettin' birded
African mums on the floor, just screamin'
It's mad 'cah I try so hard
Death's got to be easy, 'cah life's so hard
I was twelve wishin' that I was a white man, hard
'Cah if I was then they probably wouldn't life man's dargs
I was dead broke, fam, I couldn't swipe mans card
And time might pass, but I still gotta stay with it
It wasn't his beef, but I see him try claimin' it
That's why he caught a bullet with another man's name on it
Now he can't do leg day or put strain on it
Every time you hear me freestyle, I put pain in it
I used to wonder, "Does God have favourites?"
Touch me, it's dangerous, I wouldn't play with it
'Cause you can go sleep, and have a different type of wake for it
I miss my dawgs
Unstable, you violate Chris? Then rah
Turn Chris Benoit
Have him hit from far, nah
Fill 'em up with bricks and glass, nah
My young Gs will grip, then blast
Have you tried in the street
Fuck findin' my feet
I could ride, but it's better when I'm ridin' a beat
My emotions are peak, it ain't a sign of defeat or the weak
I would **** you, then cried in my sleep
Dropped Juss two racks and told him, "Buy the machine"
I'm LeBron in Miami, I provide for the heat
God strike me if I'm lyin', I ain't cryin' in this beef
Unless the tear's comin' tatted on the side of my cheek
I provide for my peeps, the Lamb' white in the seats
So I'm literally a wolf disguised in a sheep
You have five-figure dreams, I have five-figure sleep
Five hours more than enough time that I need
Man want a fair fight, but I ain't on it when we see him
Fuck honour, this revolver is onomatopoeic
Let it stut-tut-tut-tut-tut-tut-tutter when you see him
Free Scalez, Free C and free my niggas till I see 'em
I wouldn't wanna be 'em
My OG's roamin', I don't need a colosseum
You see it?
So I'm playin' it good, let hood politics stay in the hood
Fuck the internet, you see this new generation
They're Insta'-beefin' and I ain't into speakin'
When I ducked down
I had him runnin' in a lift like he missed a meetin'
There's no good reason to risk your freedom
The yutes dem snitch and them bitches sneakin'
She don't wanna talk 'bout friendship
She just wanna deal with the pipe like I'm fixin' leakin'
And sleep with a legend like Chrissy Teigen
Where I'm from, the word "Life" has a different meanin'
Man smile in your face, but them niggas schemin'
Try involve me in a flakey dealin'
Sistine Chapel, I'ma paint the ceilin'
I been violated and I hate the feelin'
That's why nowadays, man hates the preachin'
We smile in the visit, 'cah we ain't defeated
The Supreme Court's where my mates appealin'
I can't breed that girl, that's torture
South London, it's just slags on the corner
And influencers tryna bag them a baller
She a gold-digger, I can tell from her aura
Her socials say princess, she a pauper
When it's time for it, need more for my daughter
Call me a talker, but man are gettin' lined like lambs in the slaughter
It's life-threatenin' and I can tell from the borer
Cut through a nigga like a knife through flora
Feds got the guys on a case and they stalk us
It's a conspiracy, like tinfoil hats and a new world order
Touch me, you better have a life insurer
Bloodthirsty, I got sharks in the water
And trust me, I know a killer well, no orca
Have you ever seen a nightmare brought to life?
Where I'm from, you get cheffed on a normal night
Man talk on my name, but it's porky pies
I'll really put it in a prick like a porcupine
Little bro wanna save for a .45
Go board a flight, there's more to life
Yutes on the M6 all the time
We don't need TFL for a northern line
All the best politicians been taught to lie
Where do they buy cocaine when they're snortin' white?
Are their dealers safe or on the borderline?
It's ironic, 'cah we don't know where to draw the line
Man see Blue Story, they're mortified
Man see Scarface and it's glorified
'Cause when you're Black, everything gets scrutinised
That's why they call it "Urban," it gets euphemised
South London, man are gettin' euthanised
I see a yute's demise, I wasn't too surprised
He got soaked, but his right-hand scuba dived
Don't die by a sword that you used to shine
You can drown for your king, you don't know about Ophelia
'Cah we got iron, I don't know about anaemia
I took the hard road, we don't know about the easier
One bag of whores and drug paraphernalia
When ends got sticky, had a flicky with Emelia, I mean Olivia
This ain't Libya, this ain't Syria
You act sillier, we let it seep in your skin like Nivea
Who wants to be a millionaire? I won it
Never done a gameshow or trivia
I done Wandsworth, Erlestoke visitor
I done Springhill, Grendon, Swinfen, Whitemoor, Swaleside, Brixton visitor
I done M-way trips, done shit that I wish I never did
Becah I could have been a prisoner
Is this the shit that appeals to the listeners?
Road ain't no amazin' life
The ends full of snakes and jail's just a waste of time
I tell my young Gs, "Take your time"
Fuck Jazz, you could really see a major nine
Yo, I'm so ashamed of how I used to get figures
Man sell you a dream like the road ting's lit
And then they leave out the parts where you're buryin' your niggas
Or in jail, wonderin' who's puttin' dick inside your Misses
I'm so fuckin' determined
I was in intensive care when I was born, mummy fell down the stairs
Whether I was gonna live or not was somethin' uncertain
I used the word "Fell," with the commas inverted
You see, growin' up I had it far from perfect
But nobody did, so I'm a normal person
I gotta be grateful, we all have demons, and all see angels
Or maybe it's me
A Black yute's more than a face on a screen
A number on a laptop or name on a sheet
We got stories to tell and got places to be
From my heart, that's the makin' of me

[Outro: Juliet Doris Omoregie]
I was selling, look, I was selling tomatoes
I sell, my leg hurts
I struggled 'cause I didn't want to suffer again
**** I just wanted, he'd just make me so upset
Three times I tried to come here
I went to Hannover, they sent me back
I tried so much, he has not seen anything yet
I was in detention camps for months and years, I didn't give up
I was not even twenty when I left Africa
I was determined to survive
I was determined to succeed
I didn't know anybody, nobody was ready to help me
Even when you were born
You were six weeks old, this one is not even Africa, it's this nation
I was on the streets for three years
I have three babies in my hand
Nobody let me in, nobody in this nation
I couldn't pay my rent, deported gangsters carried—
I didn't give up, I carried my babies everywhere
And now this is how **** pay me back for all those pain that I go through
Every day I lay in my bed, I'm in pain
You see what he's doing to me
**** want to kill **** want to kill me