Hear Me Out

[Verse 1: Natty]
I really need to write a bar, cause when i don't write
It drives me insane, it makes me so depressive
So i write with this rage, never learnt my lesson
So i hide all this pain use my brain as a weapon
Threw my kindness away cause the pain is my obsession
So I'm signing this page to release my aggression
What I'm trying to say is music free's all my tension
So I'm flying away, away from this depression

But thats just the minor part
It's driving me insane, I really need to write a bar
Now i've been told that my songs have inspired hearts
& when i wrote real talk i really wasn't trying hard

But now I'm fighting writers block
Tryna light my mind again, but really all the lights are off
Always kept on going, never have i tried to stop
This is just a price to pay, but when will the price be dropped

Now i've been procrastinating, Some may say I'm idle
They can say that Nat's amazing, But really i just cry wolf
Never have i rapped a statement, Cause i don't preach the bible
But now my fucking back is aching, & musics got me stifled
People say I'm laid back & patient, But underneath this complexion
I'm blowing up like guy fawkes
You wanna say my tracks are basic, well I'm guessing that is my fault
Cause the fact of the matter is i didn't give 'em my all

I've had enough of carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders
Every time i try to shift the weight, the boulder stays
Right there, in-between my shoulder blades
Everyday it pushes down harder on my spinal cord
I'm turning Dragon-Ball Z, I'm just waiting for my final form
Cause everyday I'm changing, into this new me
& right now I'm facing the fact that people look at me rudely
I feel like everybody's always tryna judge me
They're either tryna start fights, or they're tryna mug me
But all i can say is, i've grown a lot since my school days
Faced up to the bullies that kept leaving me with a bruised face
& to the teachers that kept sending me to the hospital
Cause they thought i was going crazy
But what was wrong with me wasn't psychological
I've got a statement, which i've had since i was a baby
But to them it was impossible to control me
Thats when i started puffing cannabis
& now it's three years on & I'm feeling kinda lonely
But I'm overcoming these obstacles, cause truthfully I'm loving all these challenges
They're making me wiser
& I'm only eighteen so I'm soon to become a grown man
Living of my parents but soon i'll have to take life into my own hands
& for those of you who don't know
I'm no longer feeling so cold
I'm no longer alone or on my jack jones
Overcome a lot of shit, so over the years i relies that i have grown
Got rid of these thoughts of putting the mic down, before i had even picked the mic up
So now I'm in the booth again spilling all these feelings over these beats
Telling you all about how my life sucks
Now i sent a radio station one of my CD's
Waiting to hear back, but i fear that, i've messed up
Cause every single song i write, doesn't seem to be my best stuff
So you never thought you'd see me here, writing out these strong words
You thought i won't defeat my fears, but now I'm moving onwards
& every time defeat is near, you'll always see me conquer
So watch me as i leave my fears & everyday you'll see me growing stronger
Now I'm running out off air, locked inside this box & i feel like i can't breathe
(Ha)
So listen to the rhythm of my heartbeat
Everyday i write about how I'm gonna change
But then i think that i can't change
Cause one of the things that has made me who i am today is my fucking heartache
That is why i always rap about my dark days
But now I'm packing up my bags, looking depression in the eyes & saying
"I can't stay, i think it's time i moved on."
Yeah, i think it's time i moved on
& to those who said i wasn't good enough
(Hmph)
You just got proved wrong