Headspace

[Verse 1: Zach B]
I know it's all up in my head, it'll end soon probably
What if I was dead, what if they knew that I wanna be
I'm so sorry, I feel like Omori, an anomaly
And honestly, we'll be there for each other always, promise me
What do you say?
Guess I'm back to updating my journal every day
Really wish this feeling in me would just go away
From time to time I try reminding myself everything's OK
For the most mundane things, I'll just cop out
Tell my closest friends: "Not now"
Hold that in as much that I can
But why can't I fucking just calm down?
And I'd rather dream than just live
That's just the way that it is
I don't know why I care at all
My heart just don't bleed as much as my wrist
Only want to say that I was finally good for something
Just in the hopes it wasn't all for nothing
Don't know how I changed this much
It feels so good just to be a shut in
But for them it doesn't, prolly 'cause I love it
They don't understand how much they push my buttons
They appreciate me all of a sudden
All the love they pour on me just doesn't cut it
Thought I want to grow up, ready but I wasn't
All my homies blow confetti by the dozen
Every bit of hope and joy are what we need
What if it's only me, look, I think I can feel the rush, and
I don't know if I have gotten better, lately
Why's it feel like everybody hates me
All alone now, and I don't feel the safety
'Cause my inner demons always try to chase me
On my own, here again, that's me
Stuck in my dome with the friends I need
Not sure where to go, but I guess we'll see
Running out of hope, and it ends with me
Just know that means
That I'm thankful for all my friends
With them I'll be A-OK
Even if I have to pretend

[Chorus: Kevin Krust]
Do you feel your heart beat faster when your eyes close?
All the weight of everything gets trapped up and you might blow
Do you feel that something isn't right? Out of mind, out of sight
Tell me, what's wrong? What's right? Fuck it, what's another lie?
Seal up your brain, and dissipate all your pain
Who cares if you see tomorrow if it eases your mind today?
I might succumb to a debt I could never pay
While waiting for shit to change, so that something would feel OK
In my head space, I remain safe
Put my walls up and pray for a cure to my deadweight, for my friends sake
Soon I'll be free from the chains of my own mistakes
But for now I just lay in the bed that I made

[Verse 2: ChewieCatt]
Talk it through my head, some things that I don't believe in
Wish it all away, but doesn't mean that I don't see them
My eyes have been clouded and blinded, man, my head keeps spinning
Fate has been decided something that I don't agree with
Feeling is egregious, but, man, I guess that's me
They don't understand the weight I feel's the weight they'll grieve
Is it freedom from the pressure? The sweet kiss of death
Not sure of my intention, but I guess it's time I rest

[Chorus: Kevin Krust]
Do you feel your heart beat faster when your eyes close?
All the weight of everything gets trapped up and you might blow
Do you feel that something isn't right? Out of mind, out of sight
Tell me, what's wrong? What's right? Fuck it, what's another lie?
Seal up your brain, and dissipate all your pain
Who cares if you see tomorrow if it eases your mind today?
I might succumb to a debt I could never pay
While waiting for shit to change, so that something would feel OK
In my head space, I remain safe
Put my walls up and pray for a cure to my deadweight, for my friends sake
Soon I'll be free from the chains of my own mistakes
But for now I just lay in the bed that I made

[Outro: Sailorurlove]
You make nothing mean something to me
My pain and my grief, will you please set me free?
They're nothing to me