Head Down

[Verse 1]
Can somebody remind me?
I'm alive cause it's obvious Imma be dying
Nevermind what your eyes see
I got the mind of a minefield bottled inside me
And my pride is behind me, so when I speak
I try to finding the right thing
But I'm left with a bottle of vodka, and I can't decide what my mind did not see
My bum broke on the concrete, and I think what If I didn't stop and it got me
Death, is all I got in this world is me and mine
Be in mind, he remind of me of zombies
I'm a dead man walkin, but I'm drownin in sorrow and it's drownin tsunami
And I'm praying to God that my mom never finds me with an IV inside me
When I write these thoughts, I might be off
Fuck it man, It might be y'all
My son don't see me, my wifey scarred
I feel like my music cuttin' my psyche off
And I don't wanna believe in a pipe dream, naw
Inner Demons gotta fight these off
Millimeter on my right, please call
Nigga give a reason that I might squeeze off
Nigga feel the fire, I pop them pills till I feelin' tired
The devil wanna kill desire, I never really feel inspired
I guess what I feel is spillin I fill the dryer up
With my dirty laundry cause I been washed up
Hell naw, it's just my luck
Gettin' ready to end my love
It's already lost so pour some Hen in my cup

[Chorus]
I got my head down, brim low, attitude like, "Fuck you"
Been down so much to with nothin' I can look up to
My head down, brim low, attitude like, "Fuck you"
Been down so much to with nothin' I can look up to
My head down, brim low, attitude like, "Fuck you"
Been down so much to with nothin' I can look up to
My head down, that's why I got my head down, head down

[Verse 2:]
Everyone askin' 'where the hell I been' dawg
In my head again, hell has been dark
I got problems that's never been solved
When my doc calls, I cut the cellular off
You ever been called
Every name in the book till you take a every sedative talk
In the face that and you basically so sick in the brain
That you coulda ate a whole medicine ball?
I never act like I'm better than y'all
I feel bad when I set the shit off
I fell back in a devilish cause
The fuck is Tarrel at? He's dead and been gone
I wanna get nailed back on the head of this cross
Get the fuck out the trap for the better shit dog
Lord I ask for the fellowship pause
My own dad ain't accepting my calls
So watch what you bring around you
I promise it eventually will drown you
You'll lose everything around you
But Imma be the first to say fuck what they think about you
Your own loved ones they will even doubt you
Pride I can eat a mouthful
And when the shit's all said and done all they wanted from you are odds will even out you
Think about who matters the most
From back in the strap and your coat
When nobody had your back in the cold
Now you get cash, they act like your folks
Deprived people, I'm rapping for those
They wanna trap us and snatch up our souls
But it ain't happening, yo and Imma fight back till I lie flat with a tag on my toe

[Chorus]
I got my head down, brim low, attitude like, "Fuck you"
Been down so much to with nothin' I can look up to
My head down, brim low, attitude like, "Fuck you"
Been down so much to with nothin' I can look up to
My head down, brim low, attitude like, "Fuck you"
Been down so much to with nothin' I can look up to
My head down, that's why I got my head down, head down