Hard To Tell

[Verse 1]
Yeah
Shuttin' down just to calm and set with the stress
It's in the name, 'cause Stresow needed a rest
Attention deficit pills got me depressed
Tryna get my mom right since I left
Eternal bleedin' but that was really my soul
With the slow realization everyday I'm gettin' more old
The clock is ticking down on me reachin' towards any goals
And I can't avoid the thought of it, am I even gettin' close
I learned 'cause everyone I know is goin' ghost
But when I get the bread I bet you they might ask me for a loaf
But I'm just tired of tryin' by myself
It can't be good for me I need some help

[Chorus]
'Cause it can be so hard
Nowadays it's every man for himself
Nowadays it's gettin' real hard to tell
Who gon' stay when you ain't doin' well, yeah, yeah
Who gon' stay when you ain't doin' well, yeah, dang
Nowadays it's gettin' real hard to tell

[Verse 2]
Aye
I stopped smoking, lost half the people I had
Stopped pullin' up to the parties, had everyone gettin' mad
And not a single one hit me up when I'm doin' bad
Guess I was only the plug when you needed me for a gram, uh damn
Real friends, it ain't many of 'em
My circle's small I'd take a bullet now for any of 'em
When I was young I really wasn't gettin' any lovin'
I thought that 2017 I knew the day was comin'
You couldn't get me to calm down
I put way too many hours in it to stop now
Cutting my habits and just put the pot down
I realized the only one really with me is God now, dang
And I been even brushin' him off
Like out of every one why is it him, I go and piss off
My trainer thought it's off the rails
I know I gotta get off
So dear god, I think it's time to wake up

[Chorus]
'Cause it can be so hard
Nowadays it's every man for himself
Nowadays it's gettin' real hard to tell
Who gon' stay when you ain't doin' well, yeah, yeah
Who gon' stay when you ain't doin' well, yeah, dang
Nowadays it's getting real hard to tell

[Verse 3]
If I went off the grid would anybody notice
Would it even make a difference and would anybody know it
People say they care but who gon' really come and show it
All these phonies in my ear makin' it really hard to focus
But I don't know why I'm complainin'
Sometimes I'm lost in life's mains but still life is amazing
God callin' and sayin' that new life is awaitin'
And that's an offer not to leave
I don't know why not to take it
I'm awake and aware of my sins
Don't know why I'm on the fence
Jesus was there for me in the times when I wasn't with him
I don't know how he forgives
Yeah, we're all Judas
All have fallen short, oh my god we're all stupid
So this is me gettin' on my knees and prayin' for forgiveness
I've heard amazing grace, is it true, you really give it?
I got a lot of sins I'm dealin' with and still commitin'
I'm just hoping you'll be with me

[Chorus]
'Cause it can be so hard
Nowadays it's every man for himself
Nowadays it's gettin' real hard to tell
Who gon' stay when you ain't doin' well, yeah, yeah
Who gon' stay when you ain't doin' well, yeah, dang
Nowadays it's gettin' real hard to tell