Happy, Yet Depressed

[Verse 1]
Yo, I’m Happy, Yet Depressed, and maybe a tiny bit obsessed
With past shit in my life, sometimes I just wanna rest
Away the thoughts that keep making me so fuckin’ depressed
And putting me into knots, man I’m the opposite of blessed
I sit brushin’ my teeth with crest and wonderin’ how things’ll improve
I’m plundering my emotions, but that’s an act that I disapprove
Of doing, and I shudder when I think I may never get the approval
Of my parents, but I’m attempting a giant fuckin’ removal
Of the constant sadness that I feel, but sometimes I need to kneel
And sit my problems out, it ain’t awesome, you feel?
You understand what I’m saying? Hell, I almost made a deal
With the devil to make me happy, yet he had no fuckin’ zeal
I honestly don’t know why I’m always feeling down
My parents are nurturing, and my friends are some clowns
They always try to cheer me up, but I constantly frown
I’m submerged in my feelings, and I feel like I’ma drown

[Transition]
Aight yo, yo should I hit the second verse now?
Aight, fuck it, I'ma hit it. Uh, yuh, yo yo
Yo

[Verse 2]
I shouldn’t be sad, I have that perfect someone in my life
But instead I get mad, think that life ain’t worth it and go search for my knife
While clad in plaid to go end my fucking strife
Honestly, I probably have a better chance with death than getting a wife
I ain’t gonna lie, I honestly want to die
At least then I’d be in peace, and I wouldn’t have to cry
Out that I need someone to save me, and my vision’s goin’ hazy
I’m feelin’ depressed and honestly fuckin’ crazy
You don’t know how much I’ve wanted to stab my fuckin’ chest
I’ve clutched onto the weapon and I guess that I just confessed
How I truly feel inside, man way too many people have died
Great Grandpa, Isaac and all of 'em, I wanna be fuckin’ fried
Either high or die, I honestly don’t fuckin’ care
I’ve actually thought about drinking some motherfuckin’ Nair
But these are the feelings that I’ve decided to fuckin’ share
There are too many dealings in my life, I confessed now, there