Happy September

[Intro]
I don't even know what glass of wine this is
I lost count
This- this not for streams or nothing
It's not for the al- it's just for me
Maybe you too
Yeah

[Verse]
At 12 we started seein' bodies
By 15 we got used to hearin' about 'em
I mean, death keep happenin', how I’m supposed to react?
I found a nigga I grew up with died on the Citizen app
What type of livin' is that?
Last time all of my friends was alive, Chance was still doing tabs
I told my nigga, "Don’t be tougher than the next"
'Cause pride and fear have niggas do things that you can’t expect
I mean, I seen niggas die young, the city do 'еm bad
Never been too tough, I know a lame nigga'll shoot your ass
Wе can’t be angry at God
The more I live, the more I know that this world is a facade
Anyway, we can go any day
The mindset of bein' paid is man-made
You live forever through how you made 'em feel
Cause the flesh can’t be saved
Well, that’s how I justify these days
I never been the one to cause a scene
Too much esteem in a whip that’s squeaky clean
Even the seats look green, fuck do you mean? (What the f-)
Look, ayy
Look in my face and see the pain up in my eyes some of the time
Should've been hate if you learned the demise of some of my guys
Learned to be safe before we learned our goodbyes
What’s fillin' a safe when you tryna survive?
Ain’t know about savings but we know what to say in situations that could help us save our lives
Every night I sleep, all I hear is sirens
So much that now they blend in with silence
Assumin' that it’s not someone tryna survive the violence
Assumin' that it’s not no one I that know that is dying
And then check my timeline or just get a call that reminds me
That all the assumin' that I was doing was actually lyin'
Thank God that I'm not overdrinkin' too
Or over eating or oversleeping, I’m overthinkin' too
I know what I did and I know what I said
Almost died a million times, but I ain’t know that God was gon' take my homies instead
I pray happiness not a luxury
I pray for peace for all of those who have love for me
I pray to not to debate if today is the day I bring guns with me
'Cause Black plight is another day and every other day looking ugly
But I know happiness on the horizon
Bad days end at midnight
Even if you lose track of the timin'
Even if the same days keep- if they keep on rewinding
I know happiness is on the horizon, I- I know happiness on the-
Damn
I know happiness on the-
Fuck
Mm, I know happiness is on the horizon
I mean, shit, it gotta be, for real
Yeah

[Outro]
Motherfuckers, we be in our twenties, like our twenty-somethings or whatever
And I think we start realizing, you feel me, like, like
All them big homies when you was like, you feel me, like
I mean, when they was twenty-five, or, you know, and you was like thirteen
Or you was eighteen or sixteen and they looked grown and shit was lost, boy
Lost as hell like
Boy, you did not have it figured out, you what I mean?
Uh, and I think it's beauty in that
It's beauty in not knowing everything, you know what I mean?
And kinda having to figure stuff out
I think that's freedom, too, you know what I'm saying?