Happy Hour

[Verse]
Sitting in the hot seat, I'm gonna burn alive
Sweating into my coffee, it's gonna be a long night
Sobriety makes me anxious, but so does getting drunk
Never been much of an actor, but I've always been a punk

Can't win it's a lose-lose situation
Can't swim without you, hesitation
What I'm doing to myself, I will never live it down
I'm gonna need some help, and I don't wanna drown

[Chorus]
Staring contest with the bar
I don't know why I can't just take myself, away
All these empty glasses
Staring at me laughing, in my face
How can I atone if I am on my own, I don't have the willpower
And though it's awkward, I need support when it's happy hour

Haven't been out in ages, no one looks the same
I haven't been this courageous, for a while
But I wanna make a change
A moment of weakness, and fate intervenes
But I'm staying on the wagon, I promised I'd be clean

Just one it's a win-win situation
No one can reclaim my elation
What I'm doing to my soul, messing with my mind
Falling down the rabbit hole, and I don't know how to climb

[Chorus]
Staring contest with the bar
I don't know why I can't just take myself, away
All these empty glasses
Staring at me laughing, in my face
How can I atone if I am on my own, I don't have the willpower
And though it's awkward, I need support when it's happy hour

[Outro]
It always went, either way
I'd have a coke and leave, or drop a pill and drink and stay
Never wanna let my demons fully run away
I owe 'em a debt that, I can't really afford to pay
Keep your enemies, and let your friends fade away
It's a surprise when I rise, and live another day
I can't go on, keep the show on
If I do I'm gonna lose a fucking colon

Or a kidney, or a lung
I'm just a kid, see, I've just begun
I need peace, need solace, need kindness
One more beer could lead me, to bare blindness

Last night was alright, I survived
Except the gaps in night, that I missed
I could've reassessed my passion for life
But I can't remember it, cause I was pissed

[Chorus]
Staring contest with the bar
I don't know why I can't just take myself, away
All these empty glasses
Staring at me laughing, in my face
How can I atone if I am on my own, I don't have the willpower
And though it's awkward, I need support when it's happy hour