Happy

[Chorus]
Fucked around and signed a deal and I still wasn't happy, I still wasn't happy (yeah)
Bought a bunch of brand new shit and I still wasn't happy, I still wasn't happy (yeah)
Did a bunch of shit for people, they still wasn't happy, they still wasn't happy
Thought that I beat the devil in the mirror, still looking right at me
I feel I can't win
Fighting the demons within
Oh Lord, where should I begin?
Fuck it, tell me when it ends
I lost my smile
They tell me to, I grin
And I don't know when I will be happy again
Yeah, yeah, yeah

[Verse 1]
Imagine your dreams coming true and then ruined by people that's close to you right therе
The fact we make validation by thе actions made by people holding your light, scares
Satisfaction is quite scarce
Look at me taking flight but you chose to do thy stairs
Here's a quotable I'd share:
When your dreams come true, so do your nightmares
I ain't even celebrate with Tech yet
And I'm already getting death threats
By people I love, yes-yes
But when I say no, they express - how they hate me and I'm fake
Please, just erase me like an etch-a-sketch
Then I'll shape clay, shoot at ain't me
Judas hanging for a check to check
That's how I live 'fore they fire me
Took it as a sign to search for the higher me
Irony, I'm in dire need of fire weed
Driving me crazy
Thought I heard some tires screech
No one I won't be saved by a thing
Dusting these diamonds off in a rough I would be
They think it's a race far as I can see
I lose if I wait, no dieting, Lipozene
I should be chilling and happy as hell
No one is for me, they mad at Tarrel
This music gon' sell or it's back to my cell
The stock on the chopper like factory sales
I really need therapy, facts no retail
These women don't love me, they act good as hell
I made it but that made me sadder, oh well
If I didn't I'ma say I'm mad at myself because I

[Chorus]
Fucked around and signed a deal and I still wasn't happy, I still wasn't happy (yeah)
Bought a bunch of brand new shit and I still wasn't happy, I still wasn't happy (yeah)
Did a bunch of shit for people, they still wasn't happy, they still wasn't happy
Thought that I beat the devil in the mirror, still looking right at me
I feel I can't win
Fighting the demons within
Oh Lord, where should I begin?
Fuck it, tell me when it ends
I lost my smile
They tell me to, I grin
And I don't know when I will be happy again
Yeah, yeah, yeah

[Verse 2]
They calling me a legend like John
Rockstar like Ozzy, this ain't ordinary
They told me to strive for more
The more the merry
But now all I want is to be in a mortuary
Unfortunate this fortunes vary
Imagine your soul being this and goal reaching
And you go achieve it thinking that it'll be all Jesus living high
But then it's when a rich man blows, gets buried
Nigga my life is a movie full of horror scary
This May, I had an epiphany: I've been living in dismay
And with this rage I will click bang like a chick trained
I illegally open carry
There were so many women I was supposed to marry
But I'm only sittin' and writin' this and smoking Mary
Holy moly, Moses and Joseph, Mary
They want me to give them the truth
Why don't you dare me, fuck!
But now I give a fuck less
What do I think of success? It sucks
Too much stress
Don't get enough press
My kids are up next
My head fucked up, yes
No love but dumb sex
Unless I cut checks (What?)
Fuck yes, I don't have one friend
Fuck love, I'm loveless
So, love, get undressed
I know you want Tech's
So when we're done yep, you won't get one text
My life is a mess
These niggas suspect
Hating on me 'cause I made it up out the mud-bed
These bitches hated now they love me
When they used to be like fuck me
All of this shit is Spud Webb to Judge Dredd
My fans think I'm sober 'til I fail a drug test
They think I'm perfect 'til I wind up dead
And I must confess that I've been depressed
I thought fame would fix it but I'm upset, damn