HAMSTER WHEEL

YEAH, I'M A FUCK UP, I NEVER ASKED TO LIVE
SO WHY THE FUCK I'M PAYING FOR MY FUCK UPS?
I SHOULD'VE STAYED INSIDE MY DADS FUCKING NUT SACK
I SHOULD'VE KILLT MYSELF THE FIRST TIME THAT I TRIED 2
AND NOW I'M BORED OUT OF MY MIND
THE ONLY THING I THINK IS SUICIDE
BUT PEOPLE TELL ME NOT TO?

I SHOULD'VE NEVER GOT WITH ANY OF MY EXES
ALL THE PAIN I HAD TO GO THRU, I WASN'T READY FOR
AND ALL THESE TEARS I FUCKING SHED I COULD KEPT THEM ALL
& IF I TOOK A SHOT FOR EVERY TIME A GIRL TOLD ME SHE'S NEVER LEAVING
MAN I SWEAR TO GOD THAT I'D BE DEAD
EVERY NIGHTMARE I HAD IT TURNED INTO REALITY
THE THOUGHT OF SOMEONE ELSE PUTTING THEIR DICK INSIDE HER
MAKES ME WANT TO RIP MY FUCKING SKULL OUT
AND SHIT I KNOW IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT BUT FUCK I MISS YOU
AND I'D RATHER NEVER LIVE A DAY THAN BE INSIDE THIS WORLD
LIVING HERE WITHOUT YOU (FUCK)

PORTRAY MYSELF A WAY I'M REALLY NOT
I CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP EVERY NIGHT I THINK ALOT
I HATE THAT I'M THE ONLY ONE WHOS LEFT OUT
EVERYBODY LIVING NOW AND I'M THE ONLY ONE WHOS FUCKING BEGGING
FOR A PEACE OF HAPPINESS, COZ I NEVER BEEN SHIT
I SAY THAT I DON'T GIVE A FUCK BUT REALLY EVERY DAY
MY STOMACH HURTING FROM THE PAIN
DISSASSOCIATED THINKING ABOUT "WHERE DID I FAIL?"

BUT FUCK IT I'M TOO LATE, THE ONE I LOVED THE MOST IS FUCKING GONE
THINKING BOUT ANOTHER GUY WHOS PROLLY FUCKING RICHER
OR PROLLY GOT A BIGGER DICK OR PROLLY GOT A BETTER HOUSE
OR PROLLY GOT A BETTER FUCKING CAR, BETTER FUCKING CAR
I DON'T BLAME NOBODY FOR THE SHIT THEY DID TO ME
I ONLY BLAME MYSELF FOR TRUSTING EVERYONE WHO RUINED ME
I FUCKING HATE MYSELF THIS LIFE IS KILLING ME
I'M PRAYING EVERYNIGHT HOPING THAT SATAN TAKE MY LIFE AWAY

THIS SHIT IS HURTING MORE THAN FUCKING HELPING ME, WHAT CAN'T YOU SEE?
THE MAN THIS WORLD CREATED IT WAS ME
I WANNA FUCKING KILL SOME MOTHER FUCKERS
I WANNA BE THE TOPIC IN THE NEWS
I WANNA BE THE NEXT DEAD RAPPER
I WANNA TIE A NOOSE AROUND MY NECK
I WANNA SMOKE SO MUCH MY LUNGS COLLAPSE
I WANNA LEAVE THIS MOTHER FUCKING PLACE
I'M CALLING BUT I HAVE NO FUCKING FRIENDS
I WANNA BE THE PERSON EVERYONE TAKES FOR EXAMPLE
PLEASE DON'T EVER WANNA BE LIKE ME

LOOK AT ME NOW, I'M STUCK DOING THE SAME SHIT
RUNNING A CIRCLE THAT I RAN MY WHOLE LIFE DAWG
NOTHING NEW EVERYTHING I'VE DONE, I'VE DONE IT ALREADY
I'VE BEEN OUTSIDE WAITING STEADY FOR ALL THESE MOTHER FUCKERS
THAT I HAVE INSIDE MY KILLING SPREE LIST
I PUT IT ON MY MOMMA THAT THESE FUCKAS GON SEE GOD
I LET THEM LIVE FOR A COUPLE OF MONTHS BUT SOON ENOUGH
I'LL CATCH EM HANGING WITH THEIR FRIENDS OUTSIDE
HAHAHAHAAHAHAHA