Guilt

[Intro]
They must have seen it in my face or somethin'
Or felt it in my vibe or somethin' 'cause
'Cause it was like, "Ayy, Rowdy, ayy, bro"

[Chorus]
"Rowdy, are you okay? Is everything fine, dog?"
Not really, no, J, but never mind, dog
My mom birthed me, my bitch hurt me
The pain killed me, but the drugs healed me
"Rowdy, are you okay? Is everything fine, dog?"
Not really, no, J, but never mind, dog
My mom birthed me, my bitch hurt me
The pain killed me, but the drugs healed me

[Verse 1]
I moved past that, it can't hurt me
I won't backtrack it, it ain't worth it
It's stackin' up now, I'm underneath the surface
Six feet deep, tell them devils unearth me
I, I work hard, it's sweatin' my eyelids
No more school, I had to say, "Bye, kids"
It's gettin' hectic, it's dangerous back where I live
Drive-by, six-year-old, hmm, damn, bye, kids
I ain't runnin', duckin', hopin' I live
All my homies, cousins know what I did
I get to buckin, bustin', close one eyelid
Tryna hit something, get revenge for my kid

[Chorus]
"Rowdy, are you okay? Is everything fine, dog?"
Not really, no, J, but never mind, dog
My mom birthed me, my bitch hurt me
The pain killed me, but the drugs healed me
"Rowdy, are you okay? Is everything fine, dog?"
Not really, no, J, but never mind, dog
My mom birthed me, my bitch hurt me
The pain killed me, but the drugs healed me

[Verse 2]
You could bet it, they, they gon' regret it
I, I pop up on 'em when they least expect it
Let me tell you somethin', I, I got to keep it G
I feel guilty 'cause them bullets were meant for me
I'm the one who brings sin and crime to the block
The children, that's the sunshine of the block
The hollow-point 9 was mine that he cocked
Heart landed in my stomach, it's a heavy rock
I just talked to my kids, it's been a while
Actually, it's been a lil' more than a while
"Daddy, guy, hi, why don't you visit us?"
Days go by, I try, they leave me in the dust
Tears in eyes, I try to smile anyway
I'd walk a thousand miles to see you any day
I close my eyes, see your face each and every day
I just need one more chance, I'll change my every way
But daddy's baby girls, it's just too late
I got out the state, you got swept away
I couldn't count all the nights that I wept away
But now I found a mic and I found a better way
I jump on a track and let my soul bleed
All my friends from back then, they don't know me
Consequence from action, God showed me
Load the blick, I catch him slippin', l'ma murk the old me

[Outro]
Uh, all I think about is you too
I love you
I wanna give a shout-out to all the homies, all the dead homies
Anybody that's ever looked out for me in the streets
Anybody that's ever looked out for me ever
My family, my music industry family, and God
And my twin baby girls
You'll make me a better man than I ever could be
Uh
All I think about is you
All I think about is you