GROWTH

[Intro]
Let me turn that shit down
Yeah
Yeah
Findin' out reasons why I’m tryna excel
I’ve been losin’ my [?] but I still need a lil help
Yeah

[Verse 1: Karson]
Keep bussin’ your ass almost daily [?]
Phony people try and shame the work that you put in it
But never forget they count up every single one of your blessings
They too loquacious
But you ain’t stupid
You get the message
Shit, I should save my advice
But I don’t wanna be a sob story or blow up my life
Out of proportion
Yeah this pain is a bomb
I try to take it like a day at a time
I hear that shit too much
I pay it no mind
My girl thinks I should look into therapy
Look, I appreciate the fact that you care for me
But, just let me be stupid and selfish [?]
Because my mind thinks that I’ll fucking get through it
And by myself nah
And by myself nah

[Hook: Eric Ryan]
I think I need some help
Having a hard time finding myself (Mmh yeah)
My mental health is taking a toll
But that’s growth
Yeah that’s growth (Oh woah)

[Verse 2: Karson]
Optimistic and constantly flipping
Like the bird
Maybe I shouldn’t
Especially towards the world
You get what you give
The universe knew the words
Speak in tongues, express myself
Excel like computer nerds
I didn’t wanna keep moving on like I’m fifteen
I grew up, adolescence gave adult lessons
Can’t do no wrong
Learnt from mistakes, something I can’t always do
Yeah I get down
Can’t get up, spice it up
And be sick like seasonal flu
Reasons I do
Everything I can to be better
For my mama, myself and everything else in between
I’m tryna get my shit together, only seventeen
I’m only seventeen

[Verse 3: Karson]
Maybe I worry too much
Like I know that I got some time
And now one day I’ll get stuck
But it’s just
Sometimes I get angry and lonely, it’s shit
And it took so much fucking time to admit that [?]
It’s in the genes maybe
Depressed and distressed
I just need some motivation to wear my Sunday best
I hope that’s growth
I hope that’s growth

[Hook: Eric Ryan]
I think I need some help
Having a hard time finding myself (Mmh yeah)
My mental health is taking a toll
But that’s growth
Yeah that’s growth (Oh woah)

[Verse 4: Karson]
Some of the homies fucked up
And I’ve been inside my house for like three months
I’m tryna juggle everything all at once
And get my mind right
‘Cause the team has always been there to help me shine bright
I owe them so fucking much
Especially the woman that gave me a confidence [?]
Yeah that’s my baby, she my safety
I hope I make it one day
And I can make enough money to make sure we both okay
Imma work hard and I’ll wait

[Verse 5: Karson]
I’m almost an adult
I can’t believe it felt
Like yesterday life was just PlayStation games
And string cheese
It’s moments like these
Where I reflect and think about what I used to be
I’m still that snot-nosed kid
But if I could talk to him I’d tell him
“Hey, we feel less lonely
Yeah we got nothing to worry
We gon’ be good little homie
You gon’ chase that stupid dream
Just remember to be a kid
No need to be in a hurry ‘cause you gon’ grow.”

[Hook: Eric Ryan]
I think I need some help
Spent a long time fighting with myself (Fighting with myself)
My mental health is taking a toll
But I know I’ll grow (I’ll grow)
I’ll grow (I’ll grow)

[Outro]
Findin' out reasons why I’m tryna excel
I’ve been losing my [?] but I still need a lil help