​growing up fast

I'm by myself
Wondering when I got so hopeless
Making everybody notice
I wish that I would fucking stop
It's my fault
Or maybe it isn’t
I've just always felt so different
All these parts of my existence
Finally boiling over the top

And when I'm looking down at me
I can't help hating everything I see
Try to change the way I be
But I just end up causing scenes
Always sitting quiet in the corner of the class
Tryna fix all of my problems I was growing up fast
Make sure I'm okay but ain't nobody fucking ask
Worrying bout how I'm eating I was growing up fast

If nobody hurt me would I stop acting like everyone does
Would I focus on the love
Or would I still be how I was
Lost cause
I know I been doomed from all along
The first time I heard that song playing I knew I belonged
And it's sad, one day everything we love is gone
This is the only way I know how to fix what I've done wrong here

Surrender myself to this emptiness
I'd give everything not to feel like this
Or feel anything at all
Remember when everything had felt so bliss
We used to be so optimistic
I know this is my fault

And when I'm looking down at me
I can't help hating everything I see
Try to change the way I be
But I just end up causing scenes
Always sitting quiet in the corner of the class
Tryna fix all of my problems I was growing up fast
Make sure I'm okay but ain't nobody fucking ask
Worrying bout how I'm eating I was growing up fast