Growing up

In the halls
Of my childhood home
Seen that I can sit in the walls
They can dance with
Memories and feelings

Try to mourn
Crush me under like the four stops at the
Ceiling in these halls
(Halls)
Kept so covered and concealed

Swear it’s almost like everything’s meant to be broken
Is it even my fault at all?
If it’s all I know

(Sometimes the best thing’s to leave it alone but I just can’t)

I’m not a kid anymore
No, I can’t run away from growing up
No matter how hard I hope
(I know the best thing’s to leave it alone but I just can’t)

So here’s to
(Here’s to)
20 years of
Wherever life happens to steer us
(Steer us)
Every decade’s so much different than the nearest ones

Finally found out my reason for being here so
I
Ay, I stopped looking down and started looking at the sky
I’m not better yet but at least I know now I've tried
I’ve already cried till my tears ran dry
I’m just tryna get hiiiiiigh
And I’m just really trying to get by for you
I’ve set time but you’re something I can’t figure out
Baby I’m still tryna understand myself

You’re my only
My innocence left lonely
I don’t wanna think, just hold me
This is a newer and yet an older me
(Wish you were holding me)

I feel like the sky might crash down to me
In the stars I melt
Never had it before so now I would
I need the help
Getting less and less interested in needing someone else
Getting more and more adjusted to being by myself

Slowly pulling myself up out this place I put myself in
Oh me, kidding myself if I think that I was anything like I felt
Then yup now, I’m looking up
Nothing but love for you
Sometimes I just can’t help it yeah
I’m making peace with like all of my demons I’m trying not to be so selfish

Somewhere, faded in the background
Smoking till it’s all ash
Then I put it back down
I thought I could
Go and leave it in the past
I know everything can all change so fast

Walking in the pale moonlight
You’ll see what it’s like when the streetlights hit me
Like a tractor beam (Tractor beam)
All my life they thought lesser of me (Thought lesser of me)
Now they all talk about me like they friends with me

You’re my only
My innocence left lonely
I don’t wanna think, just hold me
This is a newer and yet an older me
(Older me)

[Background Vocals]
(Everything’s meant to be broken)
(Everything’s meant to be broken)
(Everything’s meant to be-)

So here’s to
(Here’s to)
20 years of
Wherever life happens to steer us
(Steer us)
Every decade’s so much different than the nearest ones (Nearest ones)

Finally found out my reason for being here so
I
Ay, I stopped looking down and started looking at the sky
I’m not better yet but at least I know now I try
I’ve already cried till my tears ran dry
I’ m just tryna get hiiiiiigh
And I’m just really trying to get by for you
I’ve set time but you’re something I can’t really figure out
Baby I’m still tryna understand myself