Growing Up

I been down for a real long time
On the luck that i found while chasing
Lock me up in a box, my pleasant grave
Trade the nomadic trust i’ll pave the way

I’m callin’ the shots
I’m short when they’re not
The desert is herding
Me out to keep searching

You’re right
I don’t wanna turn my back on growin’ up
Too old for a pipe dream
Allocate my every breath
Where being good is the rough
Few lusts ever liked me
Fuck you, i’m projecting
Wretched, i defile me
Save me from a body asunder

The cost of opportunity pops
When all of my homemade machines stop
I never had the engineer chops
Five years until switch careers, tops

Show up late to the party
But fuck i’m not invited
I didn’t want this, i decided
It wasn’t you who kicked me out

It’s not about all the bands i’m paid
It’s a proxy for the change i made right
The sirens call for me to sell my soul
Hoard what little they have until they got no more

You’re right
I don’t wanna turn my back on growin’ up
Too old for a pipe dream
Allocate my every breath
Where being good is the rough
Few lusts ever liked me
Fuck you, i’m projecting
Wretched, i defile me
Save me from a body asunder

Imma star
Someone throw me a lifeline
My feet don’t feel the ground
I’m hangin at nighttime

Imma star
Someone throw me a lifeline
My feet don’t feel the ground
I’m hangin at nighttime

Show up late to the party
But fuck i’m not invited
I didn’t want this, i decided
It wasn’t who i was anyway

Give up if you’re ready
Take on regret if the path’s too far
Everyone will know they were right to test you
Never really cut out for greatness
Bless your heart
Don’t you wanna be selling your shows out
Rip your face off to spite your nose now
Tinnitus ring in my ears gets so loud
Living alone with my doubt in this ghost town