Growing Up

[Intro]
With a past ghost
Now that I'm grown
Got me in a new low
Feels like the unknown

[Chorus]
I'm in the future with a past ghost
Stuck in reality, time is moving now that I'm grown
New responsibilities that got me in a new low
I don't wanna move forward, I got fears of the unknown
Man, fuck, please don't try to catch me, I'ma leave you in the dust
Mind is filled with many worries and I think I've had enough
Need my baby to hold me, I think I need a little love
Got thoughts one after another, man, I swear that I'm going nuts

[Verse]
What can I say? Yeah
I think I'm afraid, yeah
I don't care for today, yeah
I'm just survivin' 'til May, yeah
I need to go outside, I might be needin' the rays, yeah
Shit, this bed is pretty comfy in the dark where I lay, yeah
There's a coffin where I rest, yeah
My mind is so lively, but I feel I'm already dead, yeah
And daily and nightly I'm overthinkin' what is next, yeah
I've been thinkin' of drugs, that just might be for the best, yeah
Shit, I think I'm going crazy
All this post traumatic stress, man, it got me feelin' lazy
Put my pain into this song because this beat is fuckin' wavy
Comprehend how I feel, and it done got me fugazi
It left my vision so hazy
Regurgitating emotions because I bury so many
It got me stuck in a frenzy
The weight I carry so heavy
Can't keep relying on M-E
Just need some Fendi already
Please just leave me alone, I think I just need a mic and a Bentley

[Chorus]
I'm in the future with a past ghost
Stuck in reality, time is moving now that I'm grown
New responsibilities that got me in a new low
I don't wanna move forward, I got fears of the unknown
Man, fuck, please don't try to catch me, I'ma leave you in the dust
Mind is filled with many worries and I think I've had enough
Need my baby to hold me, I think I need a little love
Got thoughts one after another, man, I swear that I'm going nuts