This song was posted to Tumblr in 2020. It is likely personal and does not have to do with the Ethel Cain storyline. The original post contained the caption “i want this year to be over so bad,” alongside the lyrics and a photo of Hayden as a young child.
It has since been taken down.
It's easier to spin in circles when you're four years old
When falling's not a problem cause you're not the one scrubbing the grass stains out of your clothes
It's harder when the world spins circles while you're standing still
22 crying on the bathroom floor, dizzy against my will
If I don't leave home, I'm scared I'll die here
But the great wide nowhere is just as terrifying
I could suffocate somewhere I know or somewhere I've never been
I'm just as scared of living as I am of dying
God please make me feel better, 'cause I don't feel so well
I swear it didn't used to be this hard
My mama's gonna die and my daddy's gonna die
And the world's gonna catch fire
And I'll just be here watching it go
Sooner or later, it all goes
Should I be terrified or replace my heart with ice?
It won't matter either way cause I'll still be caught just watching it go
Can I please come with you?
I just wanna go with you
Great Wide Nowhere was written by Ethel Cain.
Great Wide Nowhere was produced by Ethel Cain.
Ethel Cain released Great Wide Nowhere on Wed Aug 19 2020.