The closing song to Soccer Mommy’s second studio album, gray light is a song where Sophie Allison is grappling with her mother’s battle with cancer. Allison said in an interview with NPR about how she doesn’t like talking to her mom directly about these feelings,
I really honestly haven’t talked wi...
[Verse 1]
Looking at you
Watching the shriveled flower you bloomed
I feel it too
Inside the gray light of my room
Am I just like you?
Am I gonna be there way too soon?
'Cause I see the noose
It follows me closely whatever I do
[Chorus]
I can't lose it
The feeling I'm going down
I can't lose it
I'm watching my mother drown
[Verse 2]
Something feels loose
I'm falling to pieces from one little screw
I cry to the moon
And beg it to change me or rip me in two
There's pieces of you
They cover my body, it's so hard to chew
And I see the noose
It's stuck to my fingers, I've pulled at the glue
[Chorus]
I can't lose it
The feeling I'm going down
I can't lose it
I'm watching my mother drown
gray light was written by Soccer Mommy.
gray light was produced by Gabe Wax.
Soccer Mommy released gray light on Fri Feb 28 2020.
I wanted this song to have an element of something Tori Amos did on To Venus and Back, where she added industrial sounds to bring a harshness to the beauty of these gentle guitar and synth flute parts. The song is about watching someone else be sick, and wondering if that’s going to be you in the bl...
This song reflects on everything I’ve been talking about the entire album and brings in this new element of darkness, mortality, and fear. It also touches on longing for an end to some of your suffering and some of the things that will never be okay. It’s about being tired of struggling with things....