Grave.

[Intro]
I always feel like such a hypocrite
I mean, I tell people to love themselves, ‘cause I love everyone around me so much
But I look at myself and i see all these fuckin’ monsters inside of me
And I just can’t get them out
But I’ll keep trying. Every day
Until the day I die
Whenever that is

[Verse I]
When she looks at me, the world spins in a blur beyond my eyes
And it haunts me every night, those whispers crawling down my spine
But still I crawl back to the loss those pretty eyes send through my soul
I find myself trying to remember how your clothes smelled as I roll
Another blunt to fuck my memories and give me some release
Fade into the next dimension where I finally find some peace
You can try to pull me back up from the mud that coats my heart
But everyday I just re-enter vicious cycles, end to start

[Verse II]
Don’t you worry ‘bout me baby, this is all I’ve ever known
Trying hard to dig myself out of the grave I dug alone
My hands are blistered from the shovel pushing deep into the ground
As my whole future falls to pieces and I never come around
To understanding why I can’t just feel the normalcy I see
In every face and life around me, hoping something gets to me
Before sadness pushes me off of the cliff to a sheer drop
God I hope the world falls down on me and makes this pain just stop