Grateful

I don’t wanna be friends with you
I see no need to continue
Twice you assaulted me girl
And I know that I won't forgive you

Yeah you really tried to fuck me
Despite the fact I forbid you
And now you’re ringing me asking
Why I don't even miss you

I would love to know what was going through your head when you woke up
Hungover and asking me why I never spoke up
I could give you fifty thousands reasons why we broke up
But you were always crying, even one would make you choke up

Do you even know all of the pain that you've put mе through?
When I said no it didn't seem to get through to you
And the words that you said thе next morning in bed were so painful
When I woke up scared and you told me instead to be grateful

Do you even know all of the pain that you've put me through?
When I said no it didn't seem to get through to you
And the words that you said the next morning in bed were so painful
When I woke up scared and you told me instead to be grateful

Do you even know?
Do you even know?
Do you even know?
All of the pain that you've put-

Do you even know?
Do you even know?
Do you even know?
Do you even know?

You really don't wanna have sex
Huh?
You really don't wanna have sex
I have repeatedly told you that-

As I sat across from my therapist tryna rationalise all my thoughts
I didn’t expect her to stop me and say “do you realise that’s sexual assault?”
I froze on the spot and I wondered how I could have been so blind
In fact, I was so in denial that it happened multiple times

But all of a sudden, it was like a switch had flicked in my brain
I began to get over all these feelings of guilt and hurt and shame
Coz finally somebody understood and they helped me to give it a name
And I’m writing this in the hope that maybe it helps someone to do the same

Do you even know all of the pain that you've put me through?
When I said no it didn't seem to get through to you
And the words that you said the next morning in bed were so painful
When I woke up scared and you told me instead to be grateful

Do you even know?
Do you even know?
Do you even know?
All of the pain that you've put-

Do you even know?
Do you even know?
Do you even know?
Do you even know?