Grain Of Salt

So shallow, not even an infant could drown within this compassion but
I feel as if I've drowned just the same
But rather from my ignorance that unconditional love might exist
I forgot the numbness
I forgot the frustration that makes up my daily routine of just getting by
I am just barely getting by emotionally
Judgment. Disappointment
A lack of patience for me
This is not security, but such a pretty package
The guise is broken as the truth rears it's ugly head unto me
A drunken soul, I'm conscious again
I've weakened from my stupor for the last time
So content caressed in rejection
For it's all that love has ever led to
Once again, the dying man lays down the law for this peon
It's his last grasp at control
A control that he lost in infidelity...
From today to you I'm dead as an order accepting son
Your searching and searching
But your family isn't at the bottom of any bottle
You're smoking us away
You're choking on your own
No place to hide other than my tears
They still give me away
Do all things end like this?
Must all things end like this?
So shallow
I take everything with a grain of salt