Grace

I just found out god doesnt care about me anymore
He saw peeking while someone on the other side of the table had their eyes shut tight
Hands cupped together but oh
I had to know if my older sister had her eyes open too
He heard us laughing and now that its too late to go back
I close my eyes and see nothing but black
And now i'll forever know its my fault
I’ll never say grace again
And i lost my place in space and when
I'm rotting in hell you know damn right i'll know damn well
I deserve this

I earned this distrust from the one on a cloud above
And now theres no way out
Unless it rains down and washes out the bad things in me
I doubt it