Good Grief

Predator, prey
Shout out to the ones that got away
In the mirror questioning if I’m okay
Lately it’s been kind of hard to say
Lately it’s been kind of hard to breathe
Can’t stop fuckin’, that’s how I grieve
Can’t stop smokin’, that’s how I grieve
Bend that ass over, let me grieve

That’s how my first child was conceived
Remember finding out, it bought me to my knees
I was 17
Trying to figure out what all that shit means
Can’t even celebrate the accolades I receive
Gained a couple followers but what did I achievе
Fuckin on my friends I was playing make beliеve
Making you believe it was love on my sleeve
It was just lust
Remember days when it was just us
Could barely get diapers cuz I ain’t have much
That UPS guy was never gon be enough
Switch to FedEx in pavilion loading trucks
Copped a i30 on credit
I was big headed
Knew It was a lemon
I still had to get it
I had prove myself
Fooled around, I done fooled myself
Took years to shed tears for the pain I felt
Even longer to communicate the shame I felt
Even longer just to realize I blame myself
A couple times, contemplated trynna hang myself

This ain’t a sad song
This is where I’m at now
But this ain’t my last song
This is just life rap
It’s different when a nigga transparent
They think I never suffered cause I had both parents
I done seen addiction in all forms
Sunny days ruined by small storms
I smile when it rain on me
I’m doin bad if you ever see a chain on me
I’m doin laundry if you ever see em gain on me
I’m doin a lot of new shit but I’m the same ol’ me
Lying and cheatin to have my way
I can’t share my years but you can have my slate
You can have my clothes
You can have my time
You can have my blueprint
But you can’t have my mind
The lightbulb went off and now
They want my shine
Won’t be hard to love yourself if you want what’s mine
Won’t be hard to love yourself if you love what’s theirs
Won’t be hard to see growth if you don’t wanna share
Won’t be hard to be impactful if you don’t really care
Life’s a circus nobody said the shit would be fair

But nonetheless I still expect it
Hissy fits every time I get rejected
I had to let her go but she respect it
When its undeniable you must accept it
All the shit I took for granted
Finally seeing fruit from the seeds that I planted
Wishin on a star like I ain’t have time to planet
Some days I barely understand it

This ain’t softball
But the complements be comin underhanded
Typically the sides has been candid
Grateful I can see through it
Grateful I can hold my own
Ain’t livin well
If you scared to let her hold your phone
And that’s facts
I’m done trynna run from it
When you come from it
You forget you come from it
Shoutout to the women that done held me down
To the ones who seen me weak and still shined my crown
Still see my cape
Still wash my throne
Seen the foundation broken
Andstill built that home
Seen the finances change and took out that loan
I’m kissin ass and rubbin feet as soon as I get home
And that’s facts
And that’s facts
In an ideal world
For real

Aye

Predator, prey
Shout out to the ones that got away
In the mirror questioning if I’m okay
Lately it’s been kind of hard to say
Lately it’s been kind of hard to breathe
Can’t stop fuckin’, that’s how I grieve
Can’t stop smokin’, that’s how I grieve
Bend that ass over, let me grieve