Good Girl Guilt

Good Girl Guilt – Ivory Layne

When you grow up in church
They tell you that it’s easy ’cause the boys only want one thing
That the girls all got
And you’d best be keeping under lock ‘til they get that ring
And you spend all of your time thinking you’ve got a messed up appetite
For craving what your body likes
‘Cause something dies when you come alive

Chorus
I’ve got good girl guilt
Yeah, I’ve got good girl guilt

I was twenty-three when he put his hands on me
And it started like a dream
‘Cause I got to stop holding all the wanting to myself
Do you understand?
I was taught that my body’s only made for a man
He said he loved Jesus so he must be the one
‘Til he’s in my bed with his jeans undone
I wanna scrub his memory from my brain
He said: “You wanted it.”
I guess that I’m to blame

Chorus
I’ve got good girl guilt
Taking my t-shirt off feels
So right, so wrong
When I’m not supposed to want it
I’ve got good girl guilt
Kissing like this ain’t a big deal
When I can’t afford it
I’m not supposed to want it!

Bridge
Anything, any day
And if I do, well, then I’ll pray
For forgiveness, for a change
Like I’m God’s first worst mistake
When I was young I would ask
But only silence answered back
Girls are worth what we don’t give
Women wait, men just… live
(Men just live)

When you grow up in church
And they tell you that it’s easy
Well I still believe in something bigger than me
But it never makes me small
‘Cause God never made me small