Gone Away

[Intro]
Well I've been runnin' runnin' runnin' through my time
I've been runnin' runnin' runnin', lose my time
It all goes away so much quicker than I thought
It all goes away
It all goes away so much quicker than I thought
It all goes away, yeah

[Verse 1]
Look, I've been awfully optimistic 'bout the options I've been given
Ain't the charts to top the stars or even cars that got me driven
Cause for pause if I can witness, y'all jaws just drop as I just spit shit
Off of topic, wrought from thought like I forgot the consequences
I've been searching for someone, for something, for nothing forever
I've been searching for someone, for something, for nothing forever
I swear to him, if you say god, I'll swing my fist across your jaw
I'm addicted to old ways of living, I quit that shit with no redraws
Now I'm surrounded by a thousand, thinkin' I've been all about it
Force the songs that don't belong within the mouths of those who doubt it
I'm paid to fuckin' like you, I'm not like you, check the IQ
So step down off that stool and get the fuck up out my eye view
They say it's for the birds but that just means that I can fly through
You thinking you living that freedom just because you have a right to
You were lied to, every moment you exist, is what defines you

[Chorus]
Days turn to weeks turn to months turn to years
It's all the same
Try to escape from this place predefined by my fears
It's all the same
Ain't lookin' for no one to blame to, complain to, I'm here
It's all the same
I got places to go that ain't ever been near
It's all the same
It is all the same

[Verse 2]
Been two years, I'm unproductive, a whole year to get a job
Another year to understand I can't afford the one I've got
I'm going to die before I live, if not the diet
Then I give it another year of roaming around
Before my fading spirit gives appearances in hell
I fear it isn't well, so hear it logically
I know it's all my fault that I keep on living my life impossibly
You think that when I posit these topics in thought on top of beats
I'd offer reciprocity but often I'm just a talking piece
For men that don't do nothing over the fact that when they get taught
First reaction is just fuck it, had they back to face the charges
Like I woke up in the morning trapped inside my own worst enemy
Deaf to all the words of encouragement they've been sending me
Mentally half the man I was meant to be, can't demand shit
I squandered every gift and now I'm saltier than sand gets
I want to leave this planet, take a ship where ever and land it
But I'm so fucking disorganized that I could never plan it
So I spent my time in solitude, I will have no part of you
This earth is not a home, you better take care or it will swallow you
The truth is I don't play along to wallow through the heart
It's just that ninety percent of the people I interact with seem enormous
See the worst part of it all is that I know it's not their fault
I see reflections of myself and I can't act like an adult
It's all the same, all the same like I'm surrounded by the shame
Of my infinite, imminent failures, what's the difference in the name

[Chorus]
Days turn to weeks turn to months turn to years
It's all the same
Try to escape from this place predefined by my fears
It's all the same
Ain't lookin' for no one to blame to, complain to, I'm here
It's all the same
I got places to go that ain't ever been near
It's all the same
It is all the same
I've been searching for nothing forever