Going away party

Kicked to the curb
Always felt like a backup plan
Like if i wasn't first
I would never be anything

And now i'm getting older
Forgot the pain of the old hurt
But it isn't gone
It's been replaced

Board the last train
A long time running from my last name
Burning bridges for what?
So scared of fucking up

And i held so tight
To the person i once was
That when you saw me
I thought you would hate my guts

Board the last train
A long time running from my last name
Burning bridges for what?
So scared of fucking up

I painted a target that you couldn't see
And made it my mission to make you hate me
You couldn't even let your shoulders rеst
Cause when i came running i bеcame your mess

(it wasn't okay, no it wasn't okay)
And that wasn't fair
(no, it wasn't okay, no it wasn't okay)
So now
(no, it wasn't okay, no it wasn't okay)
I just sit and stare
(no, it wasn't okay, no it wasn't okay no)
I just sit and stare