God Loves Me?

Now it's all good until it's all bad
Innocence is lost
I hope god loves me like you say so
And all them castles in the sand
I know one day they'll all be washed
I hope god loves me but I don't think he does

I try to be good
I try to be kind but I'm jaded
The only time I love myself is back when I was faded
I'm fatally flawed
I wanna be wanted
How can I make you love me
Is it with sex or with money
God giveth, god taketh
God willing, god dammit
God probably don't know me
If he did he couldn't stand me
Born sinner
Born ugly
Born in a torn family
Nosе bloody
Knuckles bloody
Soul dirty
So damaged
I'ma touch that stove top just to see if it's still hot
God don't watch
Ima sеlf sabotage my whole life for a couple of gold stars
Tell me I'm good enough
Tell me I'm worthy of love from the holiest
Tell me my sins are forgiven while I still repeat them
How many mother Mary's till I break even
How many dark days till I repent
Holy water in a spoon and syringe
Uppers downers in a cycle of shit
Take me away like my father and friends
If God exists will he love me for me
Because nobody does and nobody did
I am who I am a product of pain
I'm natural sin

Now it's all good until it's all bad
Innocence is lost
I hope god loves me like you say so
And all them castles in the sand I know one day they'll all be washed
I hope god loves me but I don't think he does