GOD COMPLEX

[Verse 1]
Look, I've been treated to the errors of my ways
Losing my direction, should I put this shit in Waze
Stressing Imma lose it over music and the fame
Hoping I can get up to the point where everybody know the name
I did so much to change, and saying this is strange
But I'm in another chapter, we ain't on the same page
My friends hoping all this god talk is just a phase
But really that's my armor that's protecting from the pain
This god complex been around for so long
I don't even feel remorse when I'm doing shit wrong
An angel just a devil all it takes is a fall
So is that mе growing up or just embracing more flaws?
And nevеr fixing shit, nowadays I don't even see a benefit
But I don't want to be depressed or a hedonist
And I don't think these sides of me can even coexist
So how do I exist?

[Bridge]
So how do I exist?
So how do I exist?
So how do I exist?
So how do I exist?

[Refrain]
If I'm wrong why does this feel right
All this baggage on my back it start to feel light
I don't even need to heal right?
I just got to keep it pushing till I get another deal right?

[Verse 2]
Those the thoughts that be running through my head
If I don't suck it up and keep it moving then I'm dead
Got too many things to prove about myself, instead
I'll just push it deep down until I detonate again
I refuse to be a trend, that's what my fam says
Every time I open up about my mental health they don't believe a damn thing
Cuz it's hip to claim an illness just to level up your fanbase
I mean I barely have a fan page
For 22 years I felt alone, running circles in this rat maze
I really had nobody backstage
And I pushed away the only one I wanted, what does that say
That's why I love the friends I have now
It hurts me even more to think that Imma let them down
We call each other king, but I was turning down the crown
Cuz what's another God if his believers ain't around

[Refrain]
If I'm wrong why does this feel right
All this baggage on my back it start to feel light
I don't even need to heal right?
I just got to keep it pushing till I get another deal right?