​go on without me

[Verse 1]
Might need you to go on without me
Hate how I feel when you're around me
I'd rather be 6 in the ground be-
-cause I'm back to feeling like drowning
It all fell apart, my surroundings
Get blurry when I think about things
Remember the chemistry, how we
Shared touches and glances while drowsy
Just wish that you gave it a chance
Feel like it was over before it began
I thought the issue was distance
Then I closed the gap and you left me heartbroken again
Head in my hands
I wanna cry but I can't
Lay in my bed and pretend
Things that you said
Were the truth even though I bet they were at that time in your head

[Hook]
Now I just wanna be dead
I cannot be loved for that long I guess
Back on my meds
Not cuz they help, cuz they kill my desire for romance and sex
I wanna die
Every time I'm left behind
The only constant in my life
I cannot find
A way forward so go on without me it's fine
Now I just wanna be dead
I cannot be loved for that long I guess
Back on my meds
Not cuz they help, cuz they kill my desire for romance and sex
I wanna die
Every time I'm left behind
The only constant in my life
I cannot find
A way forward so go on without me it's fine

[Verse 2]
I'm a mess, I know that
Never been so down bad
I'm depressed, got no cash
Follow the steps but I'm 10 back
I don't know how to be alone
My heart's never found a real home
She's been stuck outside in the cold
Long enough that her blood's all froze
Heart is frozen, brain is rotting
I am running out of options
Living life as half a person
So pathetic, broken, worthless
There is nothing but the surface
I only exist for service
Use me up, exhaust my purpose
This is just the life I'm cursed with

[Hook]
Now I just wanna be dead
I cannot be loved for that long I guess
Back on my meds
Not cuz they help, cuz they kill my desire for romance and sex
I wanna die
Every time I'm left behind
The only constant in my life
I cannot find
A way forward so go on without me it's fine
Now I just wanna be dead
I cannot be loved for that long I guess
Back on my meds
Not cuz they help, cuz they kill my desire for romance and sex
I wanna die
Every time I'm left behind
The only constant in my life
I cannot find
A way forward so go on without me it's fine

[Outro]
Now I just wanna be dead
I cannot be loved for that long I gue- gue- gue- gue-
Back on my meds
Not cuz they help, cuz they kill my desire for roma-
Desire -sire -si- -si- -si- -si- -sire
I wanna d- d- di- die
I'm left behind
The only constant -stant -stant life
I cannot find
A way forward so go on without me it's fine fine f- f- f- f- f- f-