Ghost

What if you woke up to an empty bed
And a note that said "I'm never coming home, I can't live with the person I've become"?

Would you even notice I was gone?
Or would would you carry on?
Staring blankly into spaces that I used to occupy?
I always fucking hated that distance in your eyes

I'm a ghost
I'm a shadow on the wall of a house you don't go in anymore
And though transparency is nothing new to me
I guess I never thought you'd be the one to leave

So, what's there to say?
I know that "sorry" is what's expected
But what will that change?
I'm still sleepless in the bed that I have made
The grave, the product of my selfish ways

And I know that this would mean everything to someone, but nothing to you
But I never meant to be the boy that cried wolf, there was just no other way to get through to you
I mean, how was I expected to tell you the truth?
You couldn't even look me in the face most days
And it's taken me this long to work out why

But I
I spent years being ashamed
I spent years being afraid
Of something that wasn't there in the first place

Did you ever love me?

What if you woke up
And you'd forgotten everything that I have said?
Could we be happy again?

If I can learn to live with myself
Could you learn to love me like you said you did?
I know I hate the man I am
But I am who you made me

If I can learn to live with myself
Could you learn to love me like you said you did?
I know I hate the man I am
But I am who you made me