Ghastly Thoughts

[Verse:]

You know he dead when I find him
He  ain't that fast, I been running behind him
Undo  the strap, get the metal inside him
I got no patience, my time, I ain't biding
Hit with the stock, and you know I ain't buying them
Long  with the rope, and you know it's for binding
Labels  all over me, nobody signing
Covered in dirt, ain't nobody gon' find me
I'm  wide in the scope, I ain't talking bout rifles
Losing the hope, I don't see any rivals
Keep swapping spit with these hits, feeling viral
Don't care bout my safety, cause I'm suicidal
No  self preservation, I play with a knife
No meditation, I scream in the night
No hesitation, I'm angered, I strike
No reservations bout taking a life
No reasons to live, but I've plenty to die
And plenty to waste it, and plenty to lie
And claim that my fame came from devious ties
But lately I'm living in deviant times
I'm angry, I'm stressing, I'm filled with the pain
I'm looking for reasons to rub off the paint
And I'm taking a siphon to drink out the tank
It's a bad way of life, I don't care what you think
I don't care how you're acting, I still think you're sus
I can grip on the steel until it's just rust
Getting hate in the game, man, I feel like I'm Russ
But they're begging for albums, I'm feeling too rushed
I'm not a freshman, shit, I dropped out of college and
My skin is thick, while you're lacking in collagen
Changing my styles, refused to be walled in
Never will grovel or beg for a follower
I am a leader, but I am a leech
I am a creature, and I am beast
I'm not a role model, I'm fond of the bottle
And vices, and dice, I'm rolling too deep
My mind is still gone, and my memory hazy
What have I even been doing here lately?
Who have I hurt, and who have I been saving?
Am I going crazy?
Am I going crazy? Am I going mad?
I'm panicked and manic, and ain't got no cap
I'm spazzing out lately with red on the rack
And banter from haters is making me snap
Ain't on my level, and lacking in quality
I've got a style, this isn't an oddity
Bragging bout projects, all you've got is quantity
I am a prodigy, you're a commodity