Get Myself Together

[Verse 1]
I'd rather be around some love for the night
Then to lay up with my dick in hand
Lusting over chicken heads
Puffin on the swisher stem
Medicine for the dizziness
Band aids over the trauma
My feet fidgetin'
Don't leave me with my thoughts if you love me, trust me
Shit a get ugly
Price tag on peace
I'm watching numbers increase
I'm careful around police
They bussing across the street
It's never nothing to eat
It's poisonous but it's cheap
If niggas would let me sleep
This lady across thе street
She getting her ass bеat
It's teddy bears on the curb
It's bottles of Hennessy
That's how we say RIP
So put me around some L.O.V.E
6 ft 3 but feel I 6 feet deep
Or like I might as well be
Second for myself please
Barter my well-being
A martyr for the wealthy
Niggas tried to sell me
Half of the 7 days
I needed to meditate
To focus and go create
To me at a lower rate
Them bills that I need to pay
And mama wanted grand babies
The way I'm living ma you geeking or you half crazy

[Hook]
(Before I do that)
I need to get myself together
(Pray I don't go back, tryin not to go crazy)
I need to get myself together-gether-gether

[Verse 2]
She even hip the boy to afua
Never surpressing that mental affluence
Maskin' it with the masculine
Man enough to man it down
But man enough to grab my dick
I know we needed both at times
I know we need to balance it
Fact is, not my job to unpack shit
Fact is, sometimes lyrics don't twin with actions
Back then, I roamed free and land in the mattress
Of any one that would have me
Magic the walls collapsing
With passion
And then I would vanish
Tell you about the damge I caused
Ripping off the bandage
Blame it on sad habits
Cuz home is the fifth planet
Gift of gab but a curse
When attention span got abandoned
My pallet was too expansive
But never forgot where home was at
Freedom in commitment sex drive
Can't thrive inside of no cul de sac
Parked the boy cat so fuego don't even want the strap
Hope we make a queen of our own to practice emotional maturation to soften my edges
My regression to innocence
Pinky swear to protect it
My affinity infinite spread in every direction
Won't let em paint you no bitter bitch
No you sweet like my beverage

[Hook]
(Before I do that)
I need to get myself together
(Pray I don't go back, tryin not to go crazy)
I need to get myself together-gether-gether