“gawain” is the fifth song off of kurtains' EP, insignia’s manor. This song illustrates kurtains' depression and suicidal thoughts while personifying his self-hatred, and that he “can’t be bothered to go tell him to leave.”
[Verse 1]
If I had a gun I would blast it into my head
I'd pull the trigger and fill my brain with lead
If I had a knife I’d rip into my chest
I'd stop my heart from beating, let it rest
[Chorus]
'Cause I can’t take it anymore
It fucking hurts and I can't say it anymore
It's over said and I got hatred at my door
I can't be bothered to go tell him to leave
I've had enough
I can't take it anymore
It fucking hurts and I can't say it anymore
It's over said and I got hatred at my door
I can’t be bothered to go tell him to leave
And find his way back home
[Verse 2]
If it was my choice I wouldn’t try
But I care too much so it's alright
And I know I never get the chance to say it loud and clear
So in case of all confusion, this right here’s just how I feel
[Chorus]
I can't take it anymore
It fucking hurts and I can't say it anymore
It's over said and I got hatred at my door
I can’t be bothered to go tell him to leave
I've had enough
I can't take it anymore
It fucking hurts and I can't say it anymore
It's over said and I got hatred at my door
I can't be bothered to go tell him to leave
And find his way back home
[Outro]
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