Gasoline

I’ve memorized my eulogy
Its edges stained with gasoline
Robbed beyond our skin and bones
Six years I’ve spent alone

One round and we take our shot
I’m sorry for the ones we lost
Don’t follow in my trail of blood
I won’t let you see what I have become

You’ll find freedom when I’m gone
(Don’t wait for me. It’s time to run)
I’ll burn with everything we loved

They brought the fire
Here’s the gasoline
I’m your selfish liar
My silence will catch up to me

I’ll give you all the time I spent
Because I still have no regrets

The better version of myself
Now ash and blood and fate misdealt
Lives are falling through the ground
And I can’t hear a sound

Time’s up and I strike a match
I’m not afraid of who I am
Return the blood left on my hands
I’ll be the last to die in Neverland

Or I’ll follow you instead
Take back the dreams they painted red

They brought the fire
Here’s the gasoline
I’m your selfish liar
My sacrifice will set you free

We have found a bittersweet hell
But I know fire all too well

You are all the good in me
I’ll be the weapon that you need
Count each breath until our last
We’re children who grew up too fast

And we are somehow alive
In a world we have denied
Burn it up before the dawn
They’ll find the ashes when we’re gone

They brought the fire
Here’s the gasoline
I’m your selfish liar
Our sacrifice will set us free

We are shadows of who we were
But we won’t be taken under