Fuck Feelings Freestyle

It's funny how life, keeps throwing these bumps
It's always boutta fight, or tossin in the trunk
I feared for my life, my life just hit a slump
I realise it's me, and I'm the one that crumbled
Every fucking night I fucking think about your touch
Every single night, I would use you as a crutch
I'd complain bout the past, I said you broke my trust
But the only think that broke, that was us
I still remeniss about the times we had
All this shit just blew up, I wish that it hadn't
I wish I had a wish, I wish I had Aladdin
But everything I do, just hurt you and it happened
All so fucking quickly, we didn't have a choice
I hope you get there one day, remember use your voice
Speak up everytime, and if you hear my name rejoice
It's all up from here, I promise, i just wish we had a choice
2019, man it wasn't my year
2017? Man its beginning to get clear
These odd years fuck me up, they're the ones I fear
But I will bounce back, I know it dont feel
Like it will, but it will, I always kept my hopes up
I hope you're fucking happy, shit I never meant to change up
If anyone break your heart, I swear they'll get they throats cut
I'm in this for you, and where I'm going is up
I'll never blame your -, cause I acted out of line
We all get karma, I just happened to get mine
I relapsed that day, I can't get that out my mind
But I'm fighting to be clean, and I hope you're by my side
Your - shoulda punched me, maybe that'd work
Maybe if I had some sense then we coulda made it work
I know I made mistakes, but I'm only just a person
I got too fucking cocky till the gun was on me, searchin
I can't find a reason that I'm still alive today
I shoulda just got shot or popped my life away
But I'll know the pain it gives, it's just hard to fucking stray
From the girl I woulda married, fuck, just know I pray
That your families okay, they mean the most to you
I made this shit too public, I owe my life to you
I never want to hurt a kid, I owe my life to -
I would die for that kid, now reality is too true