From the heart pt II

[Intro]
I came to a place that I recognize
But I don't know
Came to escape what I feel inside
What I don't know

[Verse]
A lot of familiar faces
But I don't know nobody
I feel a lot of pain
But I can't feel my body
It's like their in the suite
I'm stuck in the lobby
Lemme paint this scene
In the life of Tommy
For some that doesn't want drama
It tends to find me
Always put myself in a hole
Forever climbing
I just speak my mind
You pay no mind see
Hold it in till I see red
I need Visine
If you fuck up
You pulled a me
Because I'm a fuck up
That's just all I know
Learned tough love
From the lowest lows
When you feel that next
You don't feel the blow
Back in high school
I was the lone stoner without a friend
I had acquaintances
But watched every relationship end
I want business partners
I'm done having friends
(Tell 'em why)
I wanted to show every soul all my notes
Dropped the before the Studio tape with all my quotes
But didn't mix a single track Lord that's all she wrote
Terrible first impression now they don't know
That on "Lift off" and "Open Book" I became a monster
Jumped a lot of steps but no one saw me conquer
But shit I don't even like my voice
If I could quit I would but I ain't got a choice
What type of idiot goes to college for rap
And can't attend class cuz he's to busy with collabs
And working the trap just to maintain the cash
But if he really tried he really would've passed

I had a lot going on that I couldn't handle
Stressing got me chugging on handles
I went From blending in more than camo
To the main attraction as soon as I went orlando

Never felt wanted by my peers
Swore they with me till the end
Well I guess they disappeared
They only wanna take a loan
Spend every cent you own
You ask for it back then they start to act weird

Every time I got a check I'd spend it all
Just to ball out
I made a lot of enemies that don't fuck with me
Cuz they know what I'm bout
I would have bout nine kids
But guess what I pulled out
(ha)
Put the jokes aside
I've had depression all my life
Even when I acting like I'm live
I'm probably fantasizing about suicide
Every second do or die
In this life of mine
But you don't know
I just say I'm fine
I was taking care of people twice my age
Gave away my food and a place to stay
One younger too but I won't say no names
With me they cool around you they change
My gut told me to keep them away
I didn't listen I'm like nah it's straight
Mutual friend my best said he's okay
He robbed me you blocked me on the same day
That's the truth
What about the good times I had with you
You try to hit me up and I'm laughing at you
You have no clue
So I'm ignoring you
I have too many tracks
Of me straight murdering in you
No time for the chitter chatter
Money the motion to stay in power
Always working ill speak on that after
But I pushed on of course
Bills want more than half of what I make
No prenup n' we got divorced

[Outro]
This is from the heart
This is what is whats tearing me apart
Years in the making still no one got the art
Moved out the apartment for a fresh start
Into a situation so wack
Wait nah that's for another track