Freudian Slip

[Chorus]
That part of me would change if it could
You know the part that feels pain, when I start to speak your name
If I could throw it all away, then I wouldn't
And know that you would say the same, don't know why you won't explain
Everything that you are claiming is good, look, I'd hold you to it
Didn't know the one I trusted would be hoping for this
Received the hate that you should, and hope you're soaking it in
You try and hide how you were feeling 'till that freudian slip

[Verse 1]
I might be too dependant on people with bad intentions
Lying and pretend that it's evil I'm not defending
Avoiding those who tend to be feeble, so condеscending
With rules that you're bеnding, we'll meet again when it's at your ending
Was quite the descent, yet you continue to dig
Hate that I witnessed you finally give in and turn into this
There is no way you would ever listen to me, or the risk
Just to fulfil your own wish, truth is, you're making me sick
Honestly, dude, this ain't it, became so shameless
You know I'll fight back, just, please, explain this
We've lost the old you, and I feel it was wasted
Do whatever it takes, you and I maybe could change this, but
I'm OK when it's dangerous
They don't want to know even half of what pain is
When they took our home, why not return it and take his
And treat them the same, turn every bridge into blazes

[Chorus]
That part of me would change if it could
You know the part that feels pain, when I start to speak your name
If I could throw it all away, then I wouldn't
And know that you would say the same, don't know why you won't explain
Everything that you are claiming is good, look, I'd hold you to it
Didn't know the one I trusted would be hoping for this
Received the hate that you should, and hope you're soaking it in
You try and hide how you were feeling 'till that freudian slip

[Verse 2]
How the hell am I still standing?
Think I've been abandoned
Lost everything they handed
Goddamn, what a cruel plan is
Almost like they planned it
Hesitated way too many chances
Felt like I was always ready for it
But they've made me into a loose cannon
That can do a damage
And they don't believe anything I do just 'cause you can't
And always been alone at the peak and wonder how crews manage
Catching up to me isn't easy, I'mma leave you stranded, I won't take these two for granted
Yeah, thought the feeling was mutual
No one could hold me back, and I'm on my own as per usual
Yeah, life is as cruel as it is beautiful
With no undoes, and I wasn't used to being delusional
Just took a while for me to realize it
I could not believe what they were theorizing
It was so surprising to find out the truth of who you're hiding
Let me close my eyelids just to have a moment of silence

[Chorus]
That part of me would change if it could
You know the part that feels pain, when I start to speak your name
If I could throw it all away, then I wouldn't
And know that you would say the same, don't know why you won't explain
Everything that you are claiming is good, look, I'd hold you to it
Didn't know the one I trusted would be hoping for this
Received the hate that you should, and hope you're soaking it in
You try and hide how you were feeling 'till that freudian slip