Freshman

I should've died 5 years ago
A young man growing slow
Hole in my chest, I was bleeding out
I almost died my freshman year
Looking at some pictures and
I feel Emotional

Thank God I am alive right here
Darkness in my head
I was trapped in my bed
I probably should dead
Thank God I ain’t dead
I look at pictures at myself
I barely recognize myself
A young kid trapped inside of hell
I see pictures of myself
I thank god that I am so well

Oh lord why did I have to go through so much
My eyes you’ll see the strain
A never ending pain

Kept my blinds close don’t let me see me
Stayed away from lunch, they felt no pity
Broke down in art class
Alone I’m sitting
The one they thought they knew had gone missing