Forsaken Angel, Broken Wings

I saw an angel with my father's rifle
I should've set it free
Lord forgive me for my sins

Both wings broken [?] out from heaven
Ice in my heart became my weapon
Lost myself in darkness disregard my blessings
Toss and turning in sleep demons inside restless
If it's true this is god's work I failed all the tests
Tears drip down my face emptiness in my chest
I swear it's just getting worse maybe it's the devils message
Answer or ignore my mind is just a mess
Can't lie i'm stressed [?]
I pray the lessons all the lies and neglect
Finally took affect took this chain on my neck
Imma risk imma lace now rip out my heart
Make me breath my last breath
Cut into me until you see a sea full of red
Cause deep in my head all these thoughts cross
Free me from dread I can see me i'm dead
Now leave me for dead
Cause these thoughts never go away
Try to make them fade but they only stay
Temporary bliss but i'm still afraid
Always up overthinking so stay away
All the sins committed can I still be saved
That's the question that I ask every day
I don't love myself it's only hate
If you was me would it be the same
Would you love yourself with all my hate

Wish I could love myself but I know I can't
It's only hate
I don't love myself it's only hate
If you was me would it be the same
Would you love yourself with all my hate

Just take away this pain
Don't wanna use this blade
Baby please do not stay
I promise you shouldn't stay
Just take away this pain
Don't wanna use this blade
Baby please do not stay
I promise you shouldn't stay
Just take away this pain
Don't wanna use this blade
Baby please do not stay
I promise you shouldn't stay

Lord forgive me please allow my soul repentance I apologize for the things i've done and for the things I do in the future