Forgotten In Grey (Dear Mom)

(Uh) Clutching the nine as I commit the crime
I don't fuck with hoes 'cause I ain't got the time (Uh)
Kill you in seconds, I'm here just to rhyme
Taking the X and I can't feel my spine (No)
I'm speaking my mind, it just happens to rhyme
I'm feeling depressed but I tell them I'm fine
I don't know why, I'm just embarassed
I barely talk to my parents
Wanna be careless, wish I could care less
Wish I could stress less, now I'm just restless
Don't give a fuck 'bout your necklace (Fuck you)
Why does this music affect this?
Twist us and turn us, pushing us to kack in the burnеrs
Killing each other over south [?]
I am thе youth that will be rided away
Forgotten in grey

Dear mom, I wrote you this letter to tell you that I ain't feeling better
I can't sleep and I'm anxious as ever
I'm not joking, no, I ain't being clever
I'm drifting away, I feel like a feather
I'm trying to put my life together
But I haven't smiled in a while
Damn, it's been a while
My brain's right 'cause all my thoughts are vile
I don't know who to trust, man, I'm in denial
This ain't getting sent out anyway, I'm just gonna use the file
Love, your son

This ain't rap, this is how I feel (Yeah)
And I don't give a fuck so I'ma keep it real
People think I'm strange, like, what's my deal?
I just fucking hate you all, that's how I feel
And I'm staying underground so fuck a deal
Sorry, I just had to get that out
And I'm a water boy so there's ain't no drought
I'm never getting big, yeah, that's no doubt
247 I'm smoked out, loced out
Riding with the pistol grip
Shouts to triple six, taught me to not love a bitch
Hammy be the name and all I know is not to trust a hoe
Grab that .44, cock it back, then I just let it blow