Forgiveness

[Intro: Verb T]
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[Verse 1: Verb T]
Particles and dust of old worlds sit along me
Surrounded by all of one’s was and what got me
Spitting out the poison in my mouth, I watched it twist around
And hit the ground, I’m tryna to figure out if I fit the crown
The deep depression, keeping it in check
Shaking out the stress, anger, hatred, and the disrespect
What’s the price I pay for worrying my life away
Time and time again, thoughts emerge like a tidal wave
Kind of strange, self destruction on my mind again
I remain searching in the clouds for the higher planes
Forgive me please, I don’t mean to sound ungrateful
There’s a lot of love from friends and I appreciate you
I’ve been very lucky, but I also ram myself into the ground
Moving ‘round without resting and losing out
I feel stupid now, I hold my hands open
A man broken, but far from hopeless

[Hook 2x: Verb T]
I hold my hands out, please forgive me
I feel like a strange energy is with me
In a way, this is absurd to feel
You can call it self-righteousness versus guilt
I hold my hands out, please forgive me
I feel like a strange energy is with me
In a way, this is absurd to feel
Looking for the right path and I’m searching still

[Verse 2: Moreone]
[?] between wanting to be Harvey Dent and Clark Kent
I swear I keep a self-destruct button at arm’s length
It’s like I’m dealing with a thirst that I can’t quench
I’m playing snakes and ladders with a cat and a sharp fence
I’m looking at the situation that I’m in
With countless [?] little pricks praying that I pack it in
Never will I sack it off and give ‘em all the satisfaction
Everyday’s a battle with myself that I have to win
Handling the pressure, dealing with the nonsense
Feeling like Stan living with a guilty conscience
We all find it hard to admit when we done wrong
For instance, with business tryna figure out where money’s gone
And a wise man forgives but he don’t forget
‘Cause otherwise he’ll be living with a load of regrets
Yo we should all try swallowing our pride
Now telling ourselves tomorrow’s gonna be fine

[Hook]

[Verse 3: Smellington Piff]
Still searching, tryna find forgiveness
Even though I know I’m never wrong in my business
Righteous, yet I’m a walking contradiction
Talking to the devil then my head with the prediction
If I never felt pain, I’ll think that everything was fiction
Nothing here’s real, everyone’s a famed fake
Where you get stabbed in the back with a painstake
Just for name sake, these situations give me brain ache
I play the game with a plain face
And enough tricks up my sleeve to save grace, remember
A good friend’s worth two in the end
You only repent to relapse and do it again
Make a mistake and learn, or face your fate and burn
Wait to take your turn, or chase and bait the worm
It’s debatable, I hold my hands out with a papal bull
The guilt’s inescapable, don’t get caught in it

[Hook]