Foreign Complaint

I got something to write before this letter slips in
I got no one by my side and finally now, I feel fine
As the leaves are falling, as the sun is going down
My eyes are in the wind, but every summer they melt down

Here no one knows my name, they never see me around
I pretend I'm from Spain and I don't even go out
Never thought it would be so hard to live in other town
And I always remind of you when the sleep gets me down

Every dusk I watch, well, it always leaves me sad
'cause that time that I got you, the dawn was the time to bed
And I never saw the dawn anymore, now I've got to crawl
To get up from the bed, and then get off of the ground

I'm not looking for, I couldn't even get a job
Lately I'm too weak and I still got the bucks you gave me
People scream that I'm a slob, I pretend it's not with me
I just keep my face straight, with my eyes staring at my feet

Sometimes I miss my rock'n'roll records and my friends
But as long as I will die, they'll take me out of their heads
I'm not saying I was unwanted, it's just something usual
Maybe I never really liked 'em but I miss them all

Last week I went to a bar, and there was no one at it
And I've been thinking how sometimes love's hard to fit
I remembered when I was a child and how beautiful was my hair
And when I discovered that love is something hard to bear

But when the bar closed down, I started my thinking again
And going back home I cried a little bit but then
I cleaned my face with memories from my mom and my dad
And for a quick moment I forgot that they are dead

I heard someone saying love's bitter, well, I didn't disagree
But later when I was sleeping I've been waken by a dream
I don't remember well, but I only know it was about you
Then I spent all the day upset 'till accept I love you

But you know life goes on, as it goes on your life
I'd be lying if I said that someday I'll be back
'cause these words they haunt myself, I prefer to ignore the pain
'cause I'll always love you, but I don't want to see you again