​fomalhaut

[Verse]
I won't get this right, I never do
Just another night, where I think of you
And I know it's hard to cover all that spite
I do it really well, with a dulled knife
Mom I'm sorry if you hear this
I never wanna speak up on how I'm really feeling
I know that you fear it, me leaving this planet
But I want to every moment
I've been caught in my own headlights
They're too blind to notice
Turned to my own hand, in search of an answer
But all I receive are emotion enhancers
I've been down like forever
As far as I can possibly remember (So dismembered)
I wouldn't wanna hurt an ant, but I'm so selfish
I just can't help it
And I'm so sorry, I'm just not sober
Here comes October, I'm getting older
Just another disorder, that I didn't order
Goodbye sweet child, I no longer can hold you
I don't even know you, here come's the morning
I'm one step closer, maybe I'll get an answer
But I don't have the energy to speak right now (Nor feel)
One day they'll hear me out
Oh, we're among the earth, beneath the dirt
I feel it all, besides my worth
So all I have are these verbal words
I can't figure out if it's a bless or curse
Oh what a mess, I've made of me
I won't get past twenty-three
So here I am, still brittling
Imagining all that I wanna be, will I ever be?

[Outro]
Splitting hairs while the universe has it's back turnt
A naïve child leading oneself into great danger
Letting greater danger bid on the outcome
Eyes creeping open ever so softly
Are we in, are we
How come?