Follow-up a prayer / a spell

I am feeling better
so i say / good morning / & mean it
that's a big deal

yes / today / is a good morning
to exhale / to feel joy

with the release of a breath
i no longer need to be holding

i am not alone
because i feel alone

i am not alone because i feel alone.
i am not alone because i feel alone / with company.

when I look in the mirror, i will find a reflection
of the gifts i am withholding from myself.

light hits / everything at a different angle
i make a habit of tilting / my head

When the sadness waterfalls
i will let the salt cleanse the wounds i cannot see

i will let dance parties be the hospitals i heal in
if I need more help i will let the people offering help me.

if I need more help I will let the medication help me.
i forgive my body for being a machine after all

i forgive my memory for being
the cupboard door
that will continue to pop ajar
no matter how many times I push it shut

i forgive myself even if i am the last person i want to forgive
whatever I have come from / wherever i am going

i will remember the present as the place to start
today is a good day / to wake up / & be great

& have gratitude / for the restless
pump of this heart / the way it does not know how
to hold back
i exhale / & i begin.