Flowers in a Vase

Wake up next to pills and empty bottles
Checking all these messages from my mom
Hear what people say but I don't wanna
Keep riding this wave and over medicate, my love
Never runs away or breaks a promise
Except when it comes to my own body
Swore that I would change myself for Margaret
Flowers in the vase but the colors fade to grey
My love, my love, my love

Paid another visit to my doctor
Lately it's just problem after problem
Try to plant the seeds but they don't blossom
Hide the pain away and do the best to save my love
Hope that I can make it through the winter, babe
Iridescent lighting in the hallways
Guess I'll never learn from my mistakes
Flowers in the vase but the colors fade to grey
My love, my love, my love, my love, my love, my love, my love

Not the way I hoped to see my father
In his mind I was his perfect daughter
I appreciate that I still got him
Scars you can't erase and blood you can't replace, my love
If we could go back to the beginning, babe
Maybe you could know me in the darkest place
Left me all alone when I was so afraid
Flowers in the vase but the colors fade to grey
My love, my love, my love, my love, my love